Time Won't Stop.

Time won't stop. Or even pass slower.




What is past, it's gone. There's no need to look back.




Everything happened with a reason. And everything happened so quickly.




December had been a real bad month for me.




Lonely nights and empty tears.




Arguements and arguements.




I'm pretty much tired of this "EMO season".




Another day ahead, please, I wish for a better year.




I don't want to feel leftout alone anymore. I don't want to lost faith anymore. I don't want to cry everynight before I sleep anymore.




Is that too hard to please me ?




I admit, I'm not your typical-girl-next-door.




I get very emotional with every little things happen around me.




I'm happy when I'm happy. I'm angry when I'm pissed. I'm sad when I'm upset.




I can be the pain of your a** sometimes, but all I ever wanted is to feel love and care.




When I wanted something, I'll make sure I had 'em completely. I'll make sure to let them feel how much I love 'em and how much they means to me.




But when I didn't get the same responds, I felt so unappreciated.




Is money more important where you can buy stuff for you loves one, or more time to spend with 'em ?




Think properly. Of course it's superb to receive a gucci or prada bags from your loves one. But if they can't barely spend time see you, everyday only sms, I doubt you would want this type of life.




I'm looking forward for a brand new year. I want back my happiness. It's that simple. I'll learn to smile to everyone starting from tomorrow. I'll start to open up to people, it's so tiring to keep it all by myself, torturing. And I'll make sure I wouldn't cry as much as this year.




PS : IF things doesn't seem better, the only way is to give up. Coz I can't accept the time flies without you here with me.





Signing off, xoxo Kelly.

All I Want For Christmas Is You.

I don't want a lot for Christmas


There's just one thing I need


I don't care about the presents


Underneath the Christmas tree


I just want you for my own


More than you could ever know


Make my wish come true


All I want for Christmas is... You <3


I don't want a lot for Christmas


There's just one thing I need


I don't care about the presents


Underneath the Christmas tree


I don't need to hang my stocking


There upon the fireplace


Santa Claus won't make me happy


With a toy on Christmas day


I just want you for my own


More than you could ever know


Make my wish come true


All I want for Christmas is you..You baby <3


I won't ask for much this Christmas


I don't even wish for snow


I'm just gonna keep on waiting


Underneath the mistletoe


I won't make a list and send it


To the North Pole for Saint Nick


I won't even stay awake to


Hear those magic reindeers click


'Cause I just want you here tonight


Holding on to me so tight


What more can I do


Baby all I want for Christmas is You <3


Ooh baby, All the lights are shining


So brightly everywhere


And the sound of children's Laughter fills the air


And everyone is singing


I hear those sleigh bells ringing


Santa won't you bring me the one I really need


Won't you please bring my baby to me...


Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas


This is all I'm asking for


I just want to see my baby


Standing right outside my door


Oh I just want you for my own


More than you could ever know


Make my wish come true


Baby all I want for Christmas is... You <3


All I want for Christmas is you... Baby...

Dejavu much ?

I hate to say this.




But I think it's Dejavu again.




Why Why...?




I used to love Christmas.




Very very much.




But since last year, I don't put much hope in Christmas anymore.




This year, I met a new person.




I Love Him. And I bet he loves me too.




This person, he can pampered me to the max. Whenever is my fault, he will still apologize to make me feel better.




I can't expect to love anyone else other than him.




But sometimes, he's just like any other guys.




Sometimes, he make me feel so dump, clueless and weak.




I don't want to feel weak ! I don't want anyone to think that I need help all the time.




I can take care of myself. As always.




I don't have much friends, close friends to be with me whenever I need them but I still can manage to live on. As usual.




But the only thing I can't afford to lost is your love, your commitment.




If you think that I'm sensitive, indeed I am.




I like to think alot. From the way you talk to me, you react on my questions, your actions.




I've fall apart again, and again and again.




And I don't ever want to fall in the same trap.




You ask me whether I trust you.. I don't.




Coz you're following 'HIS' footsteps now.




You rather be with someone else on 25th Dec but not me.




And since you've been working, I barely spend time with you.




Message ? During your break or after you finish work.




And in phone calls, you sound tired, and bored. Unlike last time.




I don't really saw the usual smile on your face lately.



But one thing that I'm sure is, I'm a crying baby. I can't help but cry whenever I feel weak.



And I've cried infront of you many many times. I'm sorry. But whenever I'm with you, I feel so weak.



About the crying part, I guess all Libras loves to cry. Well, crying is not a crime. It's just a way to express an emotion, a feeling. I cry whenever I listen to touching lyrics, I cry whenever I watch romance movies, I cry whenever I feel alone, I cry whenever I feel unwanted.




Well things changed, but I don't like the changes at all.




Christmas's coming. Too bad we can't celebrate together.




I hope there's no dejavu hitting on me any sooner. Finger-cross.

Back.

Finally after a month didn't undate my blog.. Due to finals, sucking internet and no time..

So much stuff happened, and I can't recall where to start with. So I'll just update what happen this few days..haha...

On 20th Dec, went 1 Day-trip to Malacca with Bi and main purpose is to go to the Jonker Street.

>.<

I know it sounds crazy, but due to the complicated signboards and 1st-timer to malacca (Mr.E), we finally reach there at 7pm..lol...

Met up with cousin Dennis and Joanne in Jonker Street and jalan-jalan for couple hours.

Supposely wanted to bring Bi go try their famous nyonya laksa in 1 of the famous stall there but unfortunately, that stall didn't open on Sunday.

So, we ate dinner at the other shop, and we went all the way to Malacca just to eat
'WANTAN MEE'.. =.=

I know, LOL ! (Ps: that wantan mee also not very nice tho)

After Jonker, cousin bring us to Portugis Settlement to see their houses.

What so interesting bout their houses ?? Every year, every Christmas, all the housing area in Portugis Settlement were decorated with hundreds and thousands of light bulbs, santa-claus, raindeer, snowman and etc.

Many tourist and even local went to visit house by house and take the pictures of the houses...

Some owner even open up their gate to let visitors go in and take picture with their house...haha !

Raindeer

Caroling :)

Even on the road.

I Wanna Scream My Lungs Out.

I did all I can.




I did talk to you.




1 minute I'm happy. But 1 minute later I'm sad.




So tiring rite ? I know you do.




If it's so tiring for both of us, then maybe we should come out with some conclusion.




Some ways, that can make both of us happier.




Sorry. I just can't take it anymore.

No Expectation.

Haha... finally my home's internet connections is back to normal....




Last month can't even online...




And I know my blog has been so 'empty' lately...




Anyhoo, many many assignments coming in and final exam is just around the corner... =S




Hmmm.... Lately often argue with him.




He just don't get me. If u're reading this, U know I mean it.




He doen't know what I dislike, what I hate. Opps, maybe he did know what I dislike, but still doing it...




I know I can be quite a headache for you sometimes, but what's wrong with being jealous ? If i don't love you, I don't effin bother bout you aready !



Well maybe you don't get what my love is...




And i shall not expect anything more than I should. You will always be you.




I'm just too tired.. Effin tired of behaving like this each time... reply your message harshly and etc.




But can't you really sense that I'm upset or do something to make it up for me ? HAHA... you'll plainly ask me " Bi, are you angry ? "



Damnyourite, I AM ANGRY. EACH time you asked me this question, I wanted to answer you I'm EFFIN upset and mad of you. BUT, what is the point of me saying this. You will plainly give me the word " Sorry " and think of the way to make me happy back. AND what ? the next day did it again.




I'm bored of this. I hate to repeat the same thing each day. I hate to keep msg you with all the harsh short cold msg. But what can I do ? Damn I'm seriously tired of this.




Today, you accidentally bump into me twice in college. Twice infront of my friends. 1st, you said you're in a rush to class. But I don't think a simple ' HI ' will take you much time. 2nd time, you're were with this 'friend' of yours in that puff stall thingy. When I pass by and asked you why are you there, you did not answer but stoned there. While I walk off, you didn't even come over and say ' HI ' or what so ever. Obviously you must have LONG TIME never see your 'friend' I guess. Or maybe, I'm just not that important as compare to your friends.




Anyway, today went OU with Isabel and Jolene for movies. Watched The Time Traveler's Wife.
This movie is awesome. I actually cried at the ending. Sob... =(




Well, can't wait to film our assignment this week. I shall just concentrate on the filming, and be prepare for finals. Other than that, I will just stop thinking and care less.

I Don't Get You.

I seriously don't know what you want.

I did try to change.

I did try to treat you better.

I did all I can.

But when each time I try to show you how much I love you, you blow it off !

I'm FUCKING dissapointed and upset. You have no idea how much the heart breaks !

What do you want from me ?

I seriously clueless.

And I hate that I can't even make you happy all the time.

I'm completely a girlfriend failure.

This relationship is always bout me and arguements right ?

I know. and I'm tired of it too.

Maybe I'm not able to give you what you want.

Maybe, Maybe.. I'm also not the one for you.

Love You (II)

Happy 2nd Month Anniversary.





I ♥ You Bi. =X






xoxo, Kelly.

Smile.

As mentioned above.





I Can't Smile.





Why ?





Why I can't smile like the others ?





Why I can't smile like the children getting their candies?





Why I can't smile like there's no tomorrow ?





I finally, finally know why I can't smile.





When I try to smile in front of the mirror, I look so weird.





Those smiles, is effing fake.





Those smiles, is effing ugly.





I can never learn how to smile.





Smile naturally...Not that fake smile...





Why ?





I finally know the answer.





I never know how to smile,





It's because,





I never learn how to smile.





I never learn how to smile like I'm the happiest person in the world.





I never learn how to smile like I'm the luckiest person in the world.





Why is that so difficult for me to smile ?





That's because,





I never know how to enjoy my life.





I never know how to appreciate things in front of me.





I will never learn. I will never come out with a beautiful smile. Ever.





How pathetic it is...






xoxo, Kelly.

Back.

Raya Holidays is over.

Many things happened.





Ups and Downs.





Anyhoo, Genting had nice and bad weather during the Raya week.





---- Pictures took from my room ----





* Evening, nice clear weather *

* At night, misty, fireworks *




* Myndy love came up, it was a Sunny Sunny Day *



She ask me to pose with that plant..lol..





Oh yaa.... On that week Baby and Christina came up too. But too bad I didn't take any pic... >.<





PS : I need an effing pc mouse for god's sake. I hate laptopsssss ~






xoxo, Kelly.

What A Feeling.

I really want to get away from here.





Right now.





Can't wait for a week of holidays.






xoxo, Kelly.

Latest Addiction

♥ The Vampire Diaries ♥

Sabrina Koh turns 19 !

LoL...




Believe it..




Jo and I haven't pay the internet bills until now.




Muahaha...




And it's total of friggin RM400++




Gosh....Now I announce, I'm officially broke... =(




Anyhoo, I shall just update some of the latest activities I've went.




On 05th Sept, went to Gary's birthday party...




Finally turned 21st... haha...




Oh..he celebrated with his older brother and mother too... So nice...




Having to celebrate same birthday together every year..




Hmmmm....I don't really remember what I did for the past few daysss...




I shall just skip till 07th Sept - went to Sg.Wang with Isabel, Sabrina, Jolene and Bi.




Didn't spent much...bought few dresses and food..




Was actually planning to get heels... But jinx wei... Whatever I say I want to buy, I will never able to get it for what-so-ever reason..




LOL.




Hmm.... And 09th Sept, It's Baby Sabrina's 19th Birthday ! =)




Celebrated in MIST Club, Bangsar.




Was awesome. Not as bad as I thought it would be..




I believe everyone who's there that day did enjoy themselves.. ^^




And I'm tipsy. Like really almost gone. LOL. (Gosh I never thought I would be)




Party till 3ish, went yam cha, then went back home and sleep around 5ish...




And the next day classes was like 11am and I slept for only few couple hours... =(




On 10th Sept, the girls and I and also the boys did a small suprise party for Sab.




BBQ =)




We did have fun. As always.




And here's a little message for my dear Sabby :




I know you've heard this for so many gazilion time,




I still want to wish you HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY sweetie...




May your wishes come true !




=X




Love, KELLY.

Love You (I)

I can't update any latest stuff lately..

Damn fustrated...

Blame the internet... I haven't pay for monthssss... T.T

Anyhoo, Happy 1 Month Anniversary Baby!

I Love You.

xoxoxo, Kelly.

Drama.

PICTURES :

I don't know what is wrong with my blog.

Changed format ??

Iiish... It's hard for me to post anything.. Or was it just my pc ? >.<

Oh yesss....

Finally I get to blog...

So much of drama lately.

Well, it's not me this time. * Luckily *

I hope that 'issue' can be settled a.s.a.p.

I don't want any of my gf(s) or friends get hurt.

PS (For my gals) : No matter what happen, I'll be there to listen and 'consult' you..

Heeee ~ XP

As for me, I managed to survive a month without internet at home in dj.

* Pak-su , Pak-su *

I know it's sucks man...

Just imagine how bored I am in my room without internet, facebooking, youtube, blogging, etc...

And so, last past weeks I have been out, out and always out with my girls and baby.

And now, I'm broke like sh*t.

Can't even shop anything. Arrhhhhh....... =(

And I'm in Genting now. As usual mostly every weekends.

Youngest sis b'day yesterday, mom's b'day tomorrow and merdeka on monday.

I'm going to be busy. Babysitting =.=

Well I'll deffinietly miss my gals and my baby.

xoxo, Kelly.