I'm completely clueless now.



I don't know what I want.



I don't know where should I go.



I don't know who to rely on.



I'm so scared. I feel so empty and useless.



Why can't I have more confidence.



I'm such a loser.

All I Ever Wanted for 2010

Had been so long since the last update.



Had been very very busy with college, exams, till graduation and then internship.



But now i'm done with intern and well, here I am, free to blog whenever I want.



I'm currently spending more time with my fam, as most of my friends are busy working/interning.



BTW, FYI, I had my 2 months internship with Double Vision, a production house. And at least I get to experience how it's like to be at a shooting set. NOT very fun and dead tired job. Did a malay series name 'Kau & Aku' Season 2 which will be aired at Astro Ria. Those artist are,,,friendly, especially Tony Eusoff, he's like a brother to us (the interns). Thankgod I was exempted and get to leave early. Seriously, I could not cope the long working hours (15+ hours) and not enough of sleeps etc. But, it was really a good experience.



And oh well, shits happened again between me and him. Just ohmaigod then same whole shits happen like dejavu again and again. Out of sudden he's like having pms, and start treating me like he don't need me etc.



I don't know what's on his mind, but man I'm very clear this is not what I wanted.



Turning 20 soon. Will definitely not having any ideal birthday celebration as everyone is busy with their things and I'm not that important anyhoo. lol. just being sarcasm.



All I ever wanted is to be happy. Possibly everyday. I would want to spend all my time I have in my life with people I love, I care and I treasure most - my family and friends and make every moment special. This is all I wish for. Dear god, if you love me, please grant my wish for once. Thankew.



Ps : I gained weight ! for freaking 2kg... I blame production, for eating non-stop. Shall start on-dieting =/




xoxo, Kelly.