Hello March !

1st day of March...



Slept for 4 hours, went to class at 8.30am.



After 2 hours of class, thought can get to eat breakfast asap.



Mana tau, Chris's car kena block by another person's car and can't reverse out.



The time we went in her car is around 10.30.



And we waited for that person to finish class only come get his car. =.=



Waited for 2 hours+ !



Starving like shit.



Finally, around 1am that person came and reverse his car. Drive straight to OU.



Went Wong Kok for brunch. Was so hungry till I lost my appetite when the food arrive. Huh...



After brunch wanted to watch movie with bi. But too tired.. and shits happen again.



When I said that, most likely there is only 1 issue. Him.



Anyhoo, went back home, straight hop to the bed and sleep.



Heavy rain and thunder outside. So nice to sleep.



Woke up around 7pm and stare at the pc (youtube,facebook,twitter and mysoju) till now.

and my dinner for tonight is Maggie cup. =(



Can't even finish it. What is wrong with my appetite nowadays...? errrrrrrrghhhh.........



Later need to finish up group assignments through online with the girls..



Luckily tomorrow no class... But assignments need to hand up this week and finals on Friday.



Plus my heavily period. It's even stressing me up ! =(

Stress Much ?

Something had been bothering me lately.



Starting from this week...



I hardly even smile much.



I know it myself..



Coz this week's outing, I barely even laugh-out-loud or even smile.



Sorry bi, I've put lot of anger and attitude to you.



Indeed I'm a little bit stress up.



But, you're not helping much also.



You're slowly letting me feeling unwanted.



Or maybe it was me thinking too much.



But actions speaks more than words.



Assignments are being bitches right now.



And finals on the 5th of March.



Furthermore having emotional and mood swing now. Grrrrr.... I'm really exhausted with these feelings.



*Sometimes I kinda doubt whether I'm having Depression*



I really want a short break. A vacation. Get out from here just for a while. Coz it's So Effing bored here.

Hello Hello

After like 3 months without internet at home, finally my line is back.....



and I know my blog is really dull after so long I didn't update.



Not to worry, I'm back in actions =)



Well, so much things happened, ups and downs, tears and joy.



But skip the past.... More to come in the future =)



and finally, I have twitter... (blame my internet please....)



http://twitter.com/KellyYNS



PS : I'm already late to class now... Update when I'm free... Going over to Chris's house for some gambling session after class.... =)

Hello 2010 !

I need to get pictures from the rest.


Will update my New Year Eve celebration in Genting soon.


Love those who celebrated with me... You know who you are.. =)


and thanks baby for the suprise... =X


so far so good on the 1st day of year 2010...


Hope everyday is a good day...


and may my wishes come true...



Happy New Year Peeps ! Forget the past, Look forward for the future. Smile more and everyday is going to be a good day ! =)



xoxoxo, Kelly.

Time Won't Stop.

Time won't stop. Or even pass slower.




What is past, it's gone. There's no need to look back.




Everything happened with a reason. And everything happened so quickly.




December had been a real bad month for me.




Lonely nights and empty tears.




Arguements and arguements.




I'm pretty much tired of this "EMO season".




Another day ahead, please, I wish for a better year.




I don't want to feel leftout alone anymore. I don't want to lost faith anymore. I don't want to cry everynight before I sleep anymore.




Is that too hard to please me ?




I admit, I'm not your typical-girl-next-door.




I get very emotional with every little things happen around me.




I'm happy when I'm happy. I'm angry when I'm pissed. I'm sad when I'm upset.




I can be the pain of your a** sometimes, but all I ever wanted is to feel love and care.




When I wanted something, I'll make sure I had 'em completely. I'll make sure to let them feel how much I love 'em and how much they means to me.




But when I didn't get the same responds, I felt so unappreciated.




Is money more important where you can buy stuff for you loves one, or more time to spend with 'em ?




Think properly. Of course it's superb to receive a gucci or prada bags from your loves one. But if they can't barely spend time see you, everyday only sms, I doubt you would want this type of life.




I'm looking forward for a brand new year. I want back my happiness. It's that simple. I'll learn to smile to everyone starting from tomorrow. I'll start to open up to people, it's so tiring to keep it all by myself, torturing. And I'll make sure I wouldn't cry as much as this year.




PS : IF things doesn't seem better, the only way is to give up. Coz I can't accept the time flies without you here with me.





Signing off, xoxo Kelly.

All I Want For Christmas Is You.

I don't want a lot for Christmas


There's just one thing I need


I don't care about the presents


Underneath the Christmas tree


I just want you for my own


More than you could ever know


Make my wish come true


All I want for Christmas is... You <3


I don't want a lot for Christmas


There's just one thing I need


I don't care about the presents


Underneath the Christmas tree


I don't need to hang my stocking


There upon the fireplace


Santa Claus won't make me happy


With a toy on Christmas day


I just want you for my own


More than you could ever know


Make my wish come true


All I want for Christmas is you..You baby <3


I won't ask for much this Christmas


I don't even wish for snow


I'm just gonna keep on waiting


Underneath the mistletoe


I won't make a list and send it


To the North Pole for Saint Nick


I won't even stay awake to


Hear those magic reindeers click


'Cause I just want you here tonight


Holding on to me so tight


What more can I do


Baby all I want for Christmas is You <3


Ooh baby, All the lights are shining


So brightly everywhere


And the sound of children's Laughter fills the air


And everyone is singing


I hear those sleigh bells ringing


Santa won't you bring me the one I really need


Won't you please bring my baby to me...


Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas


This is all I'm asking for


I just want to see my baby


Standing right outside my door


Oh I just want you for my own


More than you could ever know


Make my wish come true


Baby all I want for Christmas is... You <3


All I want for Christmas is you... Baby...

Dejavu much ?

I hate to say this.




But I think it's Dejavu again.




Why Why...?




I used to love Christmas.




Very very much.




But since last year, I don't put much hope in Christmas anymore.




This year, I met a new person.




I Love Him. And I bet he loves me too.




This person, he can pampered me to the max. Whenever is my fault, he will still apologize to make me feel better.




I can't expect to love anyone else other than him.




But sometimes, he's just like any other guys.




Sometimes, he make me feel so dump, clueless and weak.




I don't want to feel weak ! I don't want anyone to think that I need help all the time.




I can take care of myself. As always.




I don't have much friends, close friends to be with me whenever I need them but I still can manage to live on. As usual.




But the only thing I can't afford to lost is your love, your commitment.




If you think that I'm sensitive, indeed I am.




I like to think alot. From the way you talk to me, you react on my questions, your actions.




I've fall apart again, and again and again.




And I don't ever want to fall in the same trap.




You ask me whether I trust you.. I don't.




Coz you're following 'HIS' footsteps now.




You rather be with someone else on 25th Dec but not me.




And since you've been working, I barely spend time with you.




Message ? During your break or after you finish work.




And in phone calls, you sound tired, and bored. Unlike last time.




I don't really saw the usual smile on your face lately.



But one thing that I'm sure is, I'm a crying baby. I can't help but cry whenever I feel weak.



And I've cried infront of you many many times. I'm sorry. But whenever I'm with you, I feel so weak.



About the crying part, I guess all Libras loves to cry. Well, crying is not a crime. It's just a way to express an emotion, a feeling. I cry whenever I listen to touching lyrics, I cry whenever I watch romance movies, I cry whenever I feel alone, I cry whenever I feel unwanted.




Well things changed, but I don't like the changes at all.




Christmas's coming. Too bad we can't celebrate together.




I hope there's no dejavu hitting on me any sooner. Finger-cross.

Back.

Finally after a month didn't undate my blog.. Due to finals, sucking internet and no time..

So much stuff happened, and I can't recall where to start with. So I'll just update what happen this few days..haha...

On 20th Dec, went 1 Day-trip to Malacca with Bi and main purpose is to go to the Jonker Street.

>.<

I know it sounds crazy, but due to the complicated signboards and 1st-timer to malacca (Mr.E), we finally reach there at 7pm..lol...

Met up with cousin Dennis and Joanne in Jonker Street and jalan-jalan for couple hours.

Supposely wanted to bring Bi go try their famous nyonya laksa in 1 of the famous stall there but unfortunately, that stall didn't open on Sunday.

So, we ate dinner at the other shop, and we went all the way to Malacca just to eat
'WANTAN MEE'.. =.=

I know, LOL ! (Ps: that wantan mee also not very nice tho)

After Jonker, cousin bring us to Portugis Settlement to see their houses.

What so interesting bout their houses ?? Every year, every Christmas, all the housing area in Portugis Settlement were decorated with hundreds and thousands of light bulbs, santa-claus, raindeer, snowman and etc.

Many tourist and even local went to visit house by house and take the pictures of the houses...

Some owner even open up their gate to let visitors go in and take picture with their house...haha !

Raindeer

Caroling :)

Even on the road.

I Wanna Scream My Lungs Out.

I did all I can.




I did talk to you.




1 minute I'm happy. But 1 minute later I'm sad.




So tiring rite ? I know you do.




If it's so tiring for both of us, then maybe we should come out with some conclusion.




Some ways, that can make both of us happier.




Sorry. I just can't take it anymore.

No Expectation.

Haha... finally my home's internet connections is back to normal....




Last month can't even online...




And I know my blog has been so 'empty' lately...




Anyhoo, many many assignments coming in and final exam is just around the corner... =S




Hmmm.... Lately often argue with him.




He just don't get me. If u're reading this, U know I mean it.




He doen't know what I dislike, what I hate. Opps, maybe he did know what I dislike, but still doing it...




I know I can be quite a headache for you sometimes, but what's wrong with being jealous ? If i don't love you, I don't effin bother bout you aready !



Well maybe you don't get what my love is...




And i shall not expect anything more than I should. You will always be you.




I'm just too tired.. Effin tired of behaving like this each time... reply your message harshly and etc.




But can't you really sense that I'm upset or do something to make it up for me ? HAHA... you'll plainly ask me " Bi, are you angry ? "



Damnyourite, I AM ANGRY. EACH time you asked me this question, I wanted to answer you I'm EFFIN upset and mad of you. BUT, what is the point of me saying this. You will plainly give me the word " Sorry " and think of the way to make me happy back. AND what ? the next day did it again.




I'm bored of this. I hate to repeat the same thing each day. I hate to keep msg you with all the harsh short cold msg. But what can I do ? Damn I'm seriously tired of this.




Today, you accidentally bump into me twice in college. Twice infront of my friends. 1st, you said you're in a rush to class. But I don't think a simple ' HI ' will take you much time. 2nd time, you're were with this 'friend' of yours in that puff stall thingy. When I pass by and asked you why are you there, you did not answer but stoned there. While I walk off, you didn't even come over and say ' HI ' or what so ever. Obviously you must have LONG TIME never see your 'friend' I guess. Or maybe, I'm just not that important as compare to your friends.




Anyway, today went OU with Isabel and Jolene for movies. Watched The Time Traveler's Wife.
This movie is awesome. I actually cried at the ending. Sob... =(




Well, can't wait to film our assignment this week. I shall just concentrate on the filming, and be prepare for finals. Other than that, I will just stop thinking and care less.