I Wanna Scream My Lungs Out.

I did all I can.




I did talk to you.




1 minute I'm happy. But 1 minute later I'm sad.




So tiring rite ? I know you do.




If it's so tiring for both of us, then maybe we should come out with some conclusion.




Some ways, that can make both of us happier.




Sorry. I just can't take it anymore.

No Expectation.

Haha... finally my home's internet connections is back to normal....




Last month can't even online...




And I know my blog has been so 'empty' lately...




Anyhoo, many many assignments coming in and final exam is just around the corner... =S




Hmmm.... Lately often argue with him.




He just don't get me. If u're reading this, U know I mean it.




He doen't know what I dislike, what I hate. Opps, maybe he did know what I dislike, but still doing it...




I know I can be quite a headache for you sometimes, but what's wrong with being jealous ? If i don't love you, I don't effin bother bout you aready !



Well maybe you don't get what my love is...




And i shall not expect anything more than I should. You will always be you.




I'm just too tired.. Effin tired of behaving like this each time... reply your message harshly and etc.




But can't you really sense that I'm upset or do something to make it up for me ? HAHA... you'll plainly ask me " Bi, are you angry ? "



Damnyourite, I AM ANGRY. EACH time you asked me this question, I wanted to answer you I'm EFFIN upset and mad of you. BUT, what is the point of me saying this. You will plainly give me the word " Sorry " and think of the way to make me happy back. AND what ? the next day did it again.




I'm bored of this. I hate to repeat the same thing each day. I hate to keep msg you with all the harsh short cold msg. But what can I do ? Damn I'm seriously tired of this.




Today, you accidentally bump into me twice in college. Twice infront of my friends. 1st, you said you're in a rush to class. But I don't think a simple ' HI ' will take you much time. 2nd time, you're were with this 'friend' of yours in that puff stall thingy. When I pass by and asked you why are you there, you did not answer but stoned there. While I walk off, you didn't even come over and say ' HI ' or what so ever. Obviously you must have LONG TIME never see your 'friend' I guess. Or maybe, I'm just not that important as compare to your friends.




Anyway, today went OU with Isabel and Jolene for movies. Watched The Time Traveler's Wife.
This movie is awesome. I actually cried at the ending. Sob... =(




Well, can't wait to film our assignment this week. I shall just concentrate on the filming, and be prepare for finals. Other than that, I will just stop thinking and care less.

I Don't Get You.

I seriously don't know what you want.

I did try to change.

I did try to treat you better.

I did all I can.

But when each time I try to show you how much I love you, you blow it off !

I'm FUCKING dissapointed and upset. You have no idea how much the heart breaks !

What do you want from me ?

I seriously clueless.

And I hate that I can't even make you happy all the time.

I'm completely a girlfriend failure.

This relationship is always bout me and arguements right ?

I know. and I'm tired of it too.

Maybe I'm not able to give you what you want.

Maybe, Maybe.. I'm also not the one for you.

Love You (II)

Happy 2nd Month Anniversary.





I ♥ You Bi. =X






xoxo, Kelly.

Smile.

As mentioned above.





I Can't Smile.





Why ?





Why I can't smile like the others ?





Why I can't smile like the children getting their candies?





Why I can't smile like there's no tomorrow ?





I finally, finally know why I can't smile.





When I try to smile in front of the mirror, I look so weird.





Those smiles, is effing fake.





Those smiles, is effing ugly.





I can never learn how to smile.





Smile naturally...Not that fake smile...





Why ?





I finally know the answer.





I never know how to smile,





It's because,





I never learn how to smile.





I never learn how to smile like I'm the happiest person in the world.





I never learn how to smile like I'm the luckiest person in the world.





Why is that so difficult for me to smile ?





That's because,





I never know how to enjoy my life.





I never know how to appreciate things in front of me.





I will never learn. I will never come out with a beautiful smile. Ever.





How pathetic it is...






xoxo, Kelly.

Back.

Raya Holidays is over.

Many things happened.





Ups and Downs.





Anyhoo, Genting had nice and bad weather during the Raya week.





---- Pictures took from my room ----





* Evening, nice clear weather *

* At night, misty, fireworks *




* Myndy love came up, it was a Sunny Sunny Day *



She ask me to pose with that plant..lol..





Oh yaa.... On that week Baby and Christina came up too. But too bad I didn't take any pic... >.<





PS : I need an effing pc mouse for god's sake. I hate laptopsssss ~






xoxo, Kelly.

What A Feeling.

I really want to get away from here.





Right now.





Can't wait for a week of holidays.






xoxo, Kelly.

Latest Addiction

♥ The Vampire Diaries ♥

Sabrina Koh turns 19 !

LoL...




Believe it..




Jo and I haven't pay the internet bills until now.




Muahaha...




And it's total of friggin RM400++




Gosh....Now I announce, I'm officially broke... =(




Anyhoo, I shall just update some of the latest activities I've went.




On 05th Sept, went to Gary's birthday party...




Finally turned 21st... haha...




Oh..he celebrated with his older brother and mother too... So nice...




Having to celebrate same birthday together every year..




Hmmmm....I don't really remember what I did for the past few daysss...




I shall just skip till 07th Sept - went to Sg.Wang with Isabel, Sabrina, Jolene and Bi.




Didn't spent much...bought few dresses and food..




Was actually planning to get heels... But jinx wei... Whatever I say I want to buy, I will never able to get it for what-so-ever reason..




LOL.




Hmm.... And 09th Sept, It's Baby Sabrina's 19th Birthday ! =)




Celebrated in MIST Club, Bangsar.




Was awesome. Not as bad as I thought it would be..




I believe everyone who's there that day did enjoy themselves.. ^^




And I'm tipsy. Like really almost gone. LOL. (Gosh I never thought I would be)




Party till 3ish, went yam cha, then went back home and sleep around 5ish...




And the next day classes was like 11am and I slept for only few couple hours... =(




On 10th Sept, the girls and I and also the boys did a small suprise party for Sab.




BBQ =)




We did have fun. As always.




And here's a little message for my dear Sabby :




I know you've heard this for so many gazilion time,




I still want to wish you HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY sweetie...




May your wishes come true !




=X




Love, KELLY.

Love You (I)

I can't update any latest stuff lately..

Damn fustrated...

Blame the internet... I haven't pay for monthssss... T.T

Anyhoo, Happy 1 Month Anniversary Baby!

I Love You.

xoxoxo, Kelly.