I'm Kelly.

2010-10-19T15:39:00.003+08:00

I'm completely clueless now.

I don't know what I want.

I don't know where should I go.

I don't know who to rely on.

I'm so scared. I feel so empty and useless.

Why can't I have more confidence.

I'm such a loser.

All I Ever Wanted for 2010

2010-10-10T22:02:00.002+08:00

Had been so long since the last update.

Had been very very busy with college, exams, till graduation and then internship.

But now i'm done with intern and well, here I am, free to blog whenever I want.

I'm currently spending more time with my fam, as most of my friends are busy working/interning.

BTW, FYI, I had my 2 months internship with Double Vision, a production house. And at least I get to experience how it's like to be at a shooting set. NOT very fun and dead tired job. Did a malay series name 'Kau & Aku' Season 2 which will be aired at Astro Ria. Those artist are,,,friendly, especially Tony Eusoff, he's like a brother to us (the interns). Thankgod I was exempted and get to leave early. Seriously, I could not cope the long working hours (15+ hours) and not enough of sleeps etc. But, it was really a good experience.

And oh well, shits happened again between me and him. Just ohmaigod then same whole shits happen like dejavu again and again. Out of sudden he's like having pms, and start treating me like he don't need me etc.

I don't know what's on his mind, but man I'm very clear this is not what I wanted.

Turning 20 soon. Will definitely not having any ideal birthday celebration as everyone is busy with their things and I'm not that important anyhoo. lol. just being sarcasm.

All I ever wanted is to be happy. Possibly everyday. I would want to spend all my time I have in my life with people I love, I care and I treasure most - my family and friends and make every moment special. This is all I wish for. Dear god, if you love me, please grant my wish for once. Thankew.

Ps : I gained weight ! for freaking 2kg... I blame production, for eating non-stop. Shall start on-dieting =/

xoxo, Kelly.

My Second Chances

2010-05-23T18:03:00.006+08:00

I love sunset.

It's so beautiful.

Took this pic on the way up to genting.

Something happened, and I almost lost him in my live.

Issues fixed, but deep inside, both of us know there's is a torn there and everything is not going to be the same anymore.

If this is my second chances, I'll appreciate it.

I'll be better for you, love.

and I'll love you with all I can.

Thanks for not giving up on me. Thanks for loving me.

That's all I needed.

ILY.

xoxo, Kelly.

Welcome baby Tao.

2010-05-23T17:37:00.007+08:00

16th May 2010

Went to KL Hilton hotel to meet up with cousin with her newborn baby Tao.

didn't really take much pic, coz something happened on that day make my mood go up side down.

What can I say ? KL Hilton is awesome. The room is crazily comfy.

Spend some time at the poolside. Dammn, so many xxxxx

xxxxx ? haha... ang mo lang lo...
(don’t have to go on right, you know what I’m talking about)

they can just sit near the pool and drink champange on the afternoon.

gahhhh.... and that day was crazily hot that I feel like going for a swim, too bad I didnt bring any cloths there. >.<>

Baby Tao. He's caucasion chinese + french + ? = super cute !

fyi he's 2 months old only. big eyes =)

SAY CHEESE ! =D my youngest sis trying to take my pic.

xoxo, Kelly.

Release Stress.

2010-05-22T19:03:00.007+08:00

Last week Thursday (13th May) I finally went to clubs again after like what 8 months ??? fuuu ~

I know I know.

laugh all you want, as everyone knows I love to club but why did I stop so long hmmm ?

Coz I know he doesn't like me going to clubs. He said he'll be very worry if I go.

oh well, after so long, finally he allows me to go :D

Went to The Palace in Herritage Row with loveys Isabel, Sabrina and Nisha.

It’s not very happening thou around 11 when we arrive. But around 12.30 the crowds came in and it turns out more than I expected.

The place was ok, but kinda small and the dance floor is not so happening thou.

It’s more like a chilling place than a club to me..lol…

1st round.

me, isabel, sabrina and nisha (thanks for bringing us in :D )

my drunkard face =.=

they said i'm a silent drinker coz i keep drinking they dont even realize how much i drank lol.

xoxo, Kelly.

So Broke in May

2010-05-22T18:14:00.007+08:00

Hey hey, i've been mia again lately.

anyhoo, this is a previous post on 7th-9th May.

On the 7th was dad's birthday. I didnt really celebrate for him coz he already celeb with my mum and his friends the other night.

Only bought him a perfume gift. and no doubt he loves it. =D coz it's been a while since he stop using perfumes.

I bought mum a perfume gifts too for this year Mother's Day. And it's so expensive but since I know she loves that brand, it's worth it right... =)

Mother's Day is on the 9th.

And on the 8th is our 9th Month anniversary. But as usual, we didnt get to celebrate together.

Thanks baby and my sisters for chipping in, if not I lagi broke 99 =.=

Mont Blanc - Individuel ( I like the smell and bottle )

See how slim it is.

Mummy's Presie - Lancome Magnifique

(comes in set with 5ml perfume, body lotion and lip gloss, but i took back n exchange the body lotion with mascara coz mum doen't use lotion)

It's expensive to spend on them since I havent even start to earn my own money. But sometimes, when all our efforts can just make them happy and feel loved, it's worth it. Really.

I love my parents.

What I have done for them is consider nothing.

I don't have to sacrifies anything for them.

But what they had done for me is everything I needed.

In fact, it's more than enough.

Thanks so much for loving me.

As for my baby, thanks for loving me for these past 9 month.

It's always ups and downs, but each of it makes our relationship grow stronger.

ILY.

xoxo, Kelly.

It's always me.

2010-04-28T03:09:00.008+08:00

Moral exam sucks.

can't believe I actually can't manage to finish the essay.

and i'm actually not HAPPY about it. But no one knows. and no one to cheer me thou.

anyhoo, been argue with him lately. Seriously, I really begin to doubt why are we still being together. - or even couple up at the 1st place.

we have totally entire different thinking and opinion, taste and feelings.

i'm so-call the 'sticky' 1. he's the secretive, manly wat-so-ever.

i am super ultimately emotional person. he keeps his emotion and thoughts to himself.

i choose to talk to improve the problems. he choose to forget it and hope things will go back as usual asap.

so much more stuff that we don't click. really, why are we together ?

I thought by holding his hands tightly, he will realise how much I love him that I won't let go his hands.

I thought by hugging him tightly, he will realise how much I love him and shows how much I need him.

I thought by smiling or crying, he will realise how much I love him and shows how special is he to have make me smile and cry.

I thought by taking care of his health or loneliness, he will realise how much I love him and I expect him to worry back bout me when I'm sick.

I thought by behaving gentle and ''manja'', he will realise how much I love him that I would behave something that I don't.

I thought by putting him as priority above my family, friends and studies, he will realise how much I love him.

I know am not good enough. I thought I can do better.

But obviously, I failed again.

I don't know what he thinks of all ( what i thought ) but he is giving me that feeling that it's no big deal and it's common to do all that in a relationship.

I bet he won't know, everytime he holds my hand and squeeze it so tighly, I just want to scream to everyone that "I'm really in love with this boy ! "

yes, that is the kind of feeling I have when I'm in love, but I don't think everyone will actually understand what I mean =/

we don't hug much lately, and kisses was not as passionate feeling as compare to few months back. we run out of topic mostly, and leave silent moment in the car each time - or only radio entertaining us.

I thought when we didn't meet then when we get to meet up, he will tell me how much he misses me, ask how's my day and stuff.

maybe he will ask how's my day, but it sound normal as in Q&A type. and then remain silent condition.

Yes, this is what happen to us in our daily basis. That's why I can't even stand looking at Sabrina and Wilson. The way they "interact" with each other, my mind is conquered with envious. They are such a loving couple.

there's so much in my mind. but he won't get it. he won't understant unless I explain it in his face. why I didn't do so in order to solve all the problems ?? coz IF i keep telling him :

" I'm upset coz you didn't know I'm actually upset at the corner there while you keep playing your games / I'm upset coz you didn't worry when I say I can't find food and I might get gastric soon / I'm upset coz I can't click with your family that I feel like a stranger in your house / I'm upset coz when I'm sick you didn't even 'gently' take care of me etc "

IF i keep telling him all these, and tell him what to do so I WON'T GET UPSET, what's the point ? Maybe there's point, maybe he shall learn and remember what will make me upset and how to not make me upset. But, what I see is pointless.

He only sees the outer, the face expression. But he will never try to understand the inner - my feelings and what I actually need.

so complicated. he will think everything is fine. but I'm not fine dear. Not lately especially.

I miss those smiles and cute laughter of him and sometimes when he scold me bout stuff coz he was worry.

I miss those kisses that was so passionate and warm.

I miss those feeling when he cuddle me on his bed when he's sleeping.

and those feelings are fading pretty much. how am I going to overcome this ? He's clueless, and so am I now.

I always wish you could show me how much you love me. or even in order to cheer me up, a simple " I Love You " will help so much. I really need you to show me that the love you have been saying since the beginning is real and worth on me.

xoxo, kelly.

2010-04-07T00:28:00.002+08:00

My sis going Taiwan...

Yes, TAIWAN !

Without ME...

And mum don't let me go...wtf right...

She said I better pray I have good job in the future, so the company can send me out overseas and bla bla bla bla bla~

Omg, seriously ???!

Well she actually think that she paid so much for my college and stuff..

True, but............ It's Taiwan !! Common la ~ I wanna go there la mummy... =(

Haiz haiz...

Sorry.

2010-04-04T19:45:00.006+08:00

Sorry...

I know I have been so depress lately. (I look depresss)

Sorry...

Was none of anyone's fault, coz nothing actually happen.

Just that there's something inside, there's something wrong but I don't know how to fix it.

Sorry...

And even YOU don't understand what I'm going through.

In fact, no one does.

Sorry...

No one to be blame, I'm just not like any normal girl.

And that's why, I don't have friends. Coz non can't except who I am.

Friends ? It's just a brief title.

Anyone can be your friends, from facebook, msn, college etc.

But what is it that make the word shine ?

Friends are those who can tell when you're having trouble and will try to ease your pain.

Friends are those that being honest to you exp, telling you what they think about you, what is best and what is not good for you.

Friends are those that are happy for you when you're happy. Not those that are envy or jealous of you (at the back).

Friends are those who never manipulate others to think badly about you, or make you think badly about others. They are the one who will always stand by you and defends your back without doubt.

To me, I don't remember what all those means anymore.

I cry, I cry my own at the edge of the wall.

I smile, I smile my own with a plastic smile on my face coz no one can tell when I'm putting a fake smile.

Sorry...

Lately was being so emotional. I hardly smile or even talk.

Sorry...

I felt so useless, I felt so weak. I cry so often that my eyes look swollen everyday.

I cry everynight and sleep with my tears. It has been so frequent that I kinda think I'm having problems. Emotionally.

The other day, HE said that I'm starting to keep so much stuff to myself. HE said he hardly see I smile nowadays. After hearing those, my heart just sink.

Sorry...

I know it's not fair to treat you so cold. But I just can't help it.

And the other day when I laugh at his joke, HE said, "Finally I saw your smile again, I love to see you smile like this, you should smile more"

I'm starting to think again, am I having depression ? Why is it so hard to smile ???

Damn, maybe I'm fated to be alone.

Sorry if I made you feel bad. Not your fault. Put the blame on me.

Strawberry Is So Addictive ~

2010-03-17T22:38:00.008+08:00

I loveeeeeee strawberry...

Love love love... <3

Just came back from Genting Strawberry Farm near Gohtong Jaya.

AND I WANT TO GO CAMERON HIGHLANDS !!!

(PS : This is an update post on 04/04/10)

Photo quality sucks. Sorry, took it with my nokia 5800 coz forgotten to bring camera =.=

xoxo, Kelly.

I Want ! [3]

2010-03-17T05:18:00.003+08:00

Grrrrr....it's already 5.38am and I can't sleep.... =(

Keep thinking of the lens I want..

Well it's not just 'any lens'... It's lens in PINK !

I saw this lens and immediately fall in love.. Coz it's unique and sweet =)

I really wanna get it...but most of the shopblog either no more stock, pre-order need to wait for a month (>.<) and some still havent reply my mail yet...

Grrrr... I want...I want...!

xoxo, Kelly.

I Want ! [2]

2010-03-16T01:51:00.004+08:00

I want I want....!

ROXY Doodle Dandy Bag in black.

I'm just in love with all the tote bags nowadays... >.<

xoxo, Kelly.

It's not just about me.

2010-03-14T00:09:00.003+08:00

Why in your world doesn't just revolve bout me ?

Why in your eyes, I am that selfish jealous girlfriend ?

Why can't I just receive what I expect ?

I wanted to love you with all my heart. But always, always when I wanted to do so, you leave me hopeless.

What's wrong with telling the one you love the truth ? Even if you'll get scolded or will get involve into arguements or whatsoever but what could be worst than telling them the truth ?

Just put your self in their shoes. You will regret for your whole life, if one day you find out, you couldn't tell them the truth till they are gone.

I'm sorry I couldn't be any wiser. I couldn't close 1 eyes. I couldn't let you hang out with your 'girl friends'. You knew I will fcked up when I know the truth, so you choose to only tell me when I ask you. I was thinking whether you will even tell me if i didn't talk bout it ?

1st rules of how to treat a girl (well). Listen.
2nd, Understand.
3rd, Respect.

It's just that 3 simple rules. Is that hard to apply ?

Maybe your friends would compare how good their gf give them their freedoms, etc.
but what's wrong when I want to be in your life ? what's wrong when I get jealous or sensitive ? You lied to me before. and not just once. What's wrong with being extra caution ?

Effort.. you just need to show me just a little bit of that. Whenever we argue or misuderstands, just show me that you don't mean to hurt me, that's all...

and I'm yours. Always will be.

whenever we argue, there's always my close friends to defense him. Why ? coz they told me, it's useless to get angry or even cry for him. Coz he won't get it.

I really love him. Badly. But when I don't feel that from him in return, I really feels like giving up. Am I just a 'girlfriend' for you ? Forget the title. I would really want to be the only girl for you. The only girl in your life. How I wish you could let me feel so.

I'm off to bed. with my ached-heart, I shall not be emo. God, please be with me tonight. To give me a peaceful sleep and strenght to not shed a tear tonight.

xoxo, Kelly.

I Want !

2010-03-11T03:44:00.007+08:00

I Wanna I Wanna I Wanna bring you home...

And I Have To Bring You Home...

Anyway, what I mean is I had came across with this lovely bag that I really want.

Yes, want..not need thou..The price...it's not something I can actually afford it right now.

GUCCI's 'Jolie' large tote with signature web and detachable charms.

Arrrghhhhh.....

I want I want...!

Give me more time, and baby you're mine... <3

BUT Obviously not any sooner lar ... =(

xoxo, Kelly.

Another Sem To Go.

2010-03-09T03:48:00.002+08:00

Just took my finals.

Was okay... as usual stressing at the 1st 2nd day before the exam..

Well what to do. I'm used to it. Perhaps I should start reading like a week before exam next time ?

Hmmm....

Anyways, having 2 weeks of break. But no where to go. What to do ????

Errrrggg.... going back to Genting and BK.. It's going to be bloody boring holidays for me I'm sure.

Still planning to go somewhere with the girl thou... Langkawi ? Cameron ? Hmmmm....

1more assignment and presentation to go before my new sem (last) starts.

Time flies man ! Didin't realize how fast the time flies till that day I look at calendar.

I've been studying in college for 21months. 1year 9months. and graduating diploma soon this year. Hoho...

See how much money ($$) spend on my studies, rental, food, cloths, phone, blah blah blah blah...

I Love You Mum & Dad ! For EVERYTHING.

Btw, I'm turning 20 this Oct ! omg. >.< Stepping in to the age range starting from "2" adi ! =.=

How good if everyone can stay 18 forever.

Not going to see bibi that much for this holidays coz he's still having classes.. ( Diff course, diff sem break) =(

Anyhoo, Happy Holidays, Girls...! I love you.. YOU know who you are =)

xoxo, Kelly.

Hello March !

2010-03-01T21:03:00.005+08:00

1st day of March...

Slept for 4 hours, went to class at 8.30am.

After 2 hours of class, thought can get to eat breakfast asap.

Mana tau, Chris's car kena block by another person's car and can't reverse out.

The time we went in her car is around 10.30.

And we waited for that person to finish class only come get his car. =.=

Waited for 2 hours+ !

Starving like shit.

Finally, around 1am that person came and reverse his car. Drive straight to OU.

Went Wong Kok for brunch. Was so hungry till I lost my appetite when the food arrive. Huh...

After brunch wanted to watch movie with bi. But too tired.. and shits happen again.

When I said that, most likely there is only 1 issue. Him.

Anyhoo, went back home, straight hop to the bed and sleep.

Heavy rain and thunder outside. So nice to sleep.

Woke up around 7pm and stare at the pc (youtube,facebook,twitter and mysoju) till now.

and my dinner for tonight is Maggie cup. =(

Can't even finish it. What is wrong with my appetite nowadays...? errrrrrrrghhhh.........

Later need to finish up group assignments through online with the girls..

Luckily tomorrow no class... But assignments need to hand up this week and finals on Friday.

Plus my heavily period. It's even stressing me up ! =(

Stress Much ?

2010-02-27T23:00:00.002+08:00

Something had been bothering me lately.

Starting from this week...

I hardly even smile much.

I know it myself..

Coz this week's outing, I barely even laugh-out-loud or even smile.

Sorry bi, I've put lot of anger and attitude to you.

Indeed I'm a little bit stress up.

But, you're not helping much also.

You're slowly letting me feeling unwanted.

Or maybe it was me thinking too much.

But actions speaks more than words.

Assignments are being bitches right now.

And finals on the 5th of March.

Furthermore having emotional and mood swing now. Grrrrr.... I'm really exhausted with these feelings.

*Sometimes I kinda doubt whether I'm having Depression*

I really want a short break. A vacation. Get out from here just for a while. Coz it's So Effing bored here.

Hello Hello

2010-02-24T12:22:00.004+08:00

After like 3 months without internet at home, finally my line is back.....

and I know my blog is really dull after so long I didn't update.

Not to worry, I'm back in actions =)

Well, so much things happened, ups and downs, tears and joy.

But skip the past.... More to come in the future =)

and finally, I have twitter... (blame my internet please....)

http://twitter.com/KellyYNS

PS : I'm already late to class now... Update when I'm free... Going over to Chris's house for some gambling session after class.... =)

Hello 2010 !

2010-01-01T23:35:00.002+08:00

I need to get pictures from the rest.

Will update my New Year Eve celebration in Genting soon.

Love those who celebrated with me... You know who you are.. =)

and thanks baby for the suprise... =X

so far so good on the 1st day of year 2010...

Hope everyday is a good day...

and may my wishes come true...

Happy New Year Peeps ! Forget the past, Look forward for the future. Smile more and everyday is going to be a good day ! =)

xoxoxo, Kelly.

Time Won't Stop.

2009-12-31T12:09:00.003+08:00

Time won't stop. Or even pass slower.

What is past, it's gone. There's no need to look back.

Everything happened with a reason. And everything happened so quickly.

December had been a real bad month for me.

Lonely nights and empty tears.

Arguements and arguements.

I'm pretty much tired of this "EMO season".

Another day ahead, please, I wish for a better year.

I don't want to feel leftout alone anymore. I don't want to lost faith anymore. I don't want to cry everynight before I sleep anymore.

Is that too hard to please me ?

I admit, I'm not your typical-girl-next-door.

I get very emotional with every little things happen around me.

I'm happy when I'm happy. I'm angry when I'm pissed. I'm sad when I'm upset.

I can be the pain of your a** sometimes, but all I ever wanted is to feel love and care.

When I wanted something, I'll make sure I had 'em completely. I'll make sure to let them feel how much I love 'em and how much they means to me.

But when I didn't get the same responds, I felt so unappreciated.

Is money more important where you can buy stuff for you loves one, or more time to spend with 'em ?

Think properly. Of course it's superb to receive a gucci or prada bags from your loves one. But if they can't barely spend time see you, everyday only sms, I doubt you would want this type of life.

I'm looking forward for a brand new year. I want back my happiness. It's that simple. I'll learn to smile to everyone starting from tomorrow. I'll start to open up to people, it's so tiring to keep it all by myself, torturing. And I'll make sure I wouldn't cry as much as this year.

PS : IF things doesn't seem better, the only way is to give up. Coz I can't accept the time flies without you here with me.

Signing off, xoxo Kelly.

All I Want For Christmas Is You.

2009-12-22T19:27:00.003+08:00

I don't want a lot for Christmas

There's just one thing I need

I don't care about the presents

Underneath the Christmas tree

I just want you for my own

More than you could ever know

Make my wish come true

All I want for Christmas is... You <3

I don't want a lot for Christmas

There's just one thing I need

I don't care about the presents

Underneath the Christmas tree

I don't need to hang my stocking

There upon the fireplace

Santa Claus won't make me happy

With a toy on Christmas day

I just want you for my own

More than you could ever know

Make my wish come true

All I want for Christmas is you..You baby <3

I won't ask for much this Christmas

I don't even wish for snow

I'm just gonna keep on waiting

Underneath the mistletoe

I won't make a list and send it

To the North Pole for Saint Nick

I won't even stay awake to

Hear those magic reindeers click

'Cause I just want you here tonight

Holding on to me so tight

What more can I do

Baby all I want for Christmas is You <3

Ooh baby, All the lights are shining

So brightly everywhere

And the sound of children's Laughter fills the air

And everyone is singing

I hear those sleigh bells ringing

Santa won't you bring me the one I really need

Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas

This is all I'm asking for

I just want to see my baby

Standing right outside my door

Oh I just want you for my own

More than you could ever know

Make my wish come true

Baby all I want for Christmas is... You <3

All I want for Christmas is you... Baby...

Dejavu much ?

2009-12-22T18:42:00.002+08:00

I hate to say this.

But I think it's Dejavu again.

Why Why...?

I used to love Christmas.

Very very much.

But since last year, I don't put much hope in Christmas anymore.

This year, I met a new person.

I Love Him. And I bet he loves me too.

This person, he can pampered me to the max. Whenever is my fault, he will still apologize to make me feel better.

I can't expect to love anyone else other than him.

But sometimes, he's just like any other guys.

Sometimes, he make me feel so dump, clueless and weak.

I don't want to feel weak ! I don't want anyone to think that I need help all the time.

I can take care of myself. As always.

I don't have much friends, close friends to be with me whenever I need them but I still can manage to live on. As usual.

But the only thing I can't afford to lost is your love, your commitment.

If you think that I'm sensitive, indeed I am.

I like to think alot. From the way you talk to me, you react on my questions, your actions.

I've fall apart again, and again and again.

And I don't ever want to fall in the same trap.

You ask me whether I trust you.. I don't.

Coz you're following 'HIS' footsteps now.

You rather be with someone else on 25th Dec but not me.

And since you've been working, I barely spend time with you.

Message ? During your break or after you finish work.

And in phone calls, you sound tired, and bored. Unlike last time.

I don't really saw the usual smile on your face lately.

But one thing that I'm sure is, I'm a crying baby. I can't help but cry whenever I feel weak.

And I've cried infront of you many many times. I'm sorry. But whenever I'm with you, I feel so weak.

About the crying part, I guess all Libras loves to cry. Well, crying is not a crime. It's just a way to express an emotion, a feeling. I cry whenever I listen to touching lyrics, I cry whenever I watch romance movies, I cry whenever I feel alone, I cry whenever I feel unwanted.

Well things changed, but I don't like the changes at all.

Christmas's coming. Too bad we can't celebrate together.

I hope there's no dejavu hitting on me any sooner. Finger-cross.

Back.

2009-12-22T17:27:00.011+08:00

Finally after a month didn't undate my blog.. Due to finals, sucking internet and no time..

So much stuff happened, and I can't recall where to start with. So I'll just update what happen this few days..haha...

On 20th Dec, went 1 Day-trip to Malacca with Bi and main purpose is to go to the Jonker Street.

>.<

I know it sounds crazy, but due to the complicated signboards and 1st-timer to malacca (Mr.E), we finally reach there at 7pm..lol...

Met up with cousin Dennis and Joanne in Jonker Street and jalan-jalan for couple hours.

Supposely wanted to bring Bi go try their famous nyonya laksa in 1 of the famous stall there but unfortunately, that stall didn't open on Sunday.

So, we ate dinner at the other shop, and we went all the way to Malacca just to eat
'WANTAN MEE'.. =.=

I know, LOL ! (Ps: that wantan mee also not very nice tho)

After Jonker, cousin bring us to Portugis Settlement to see their houses.

What so interesting bout their houses ?? Every year, every Christmas, all the housing area in Portugis Settlement were decorated with hundreds and thousands of light bulbs, santa-claus, raindeer, snowman and etc.

Many tourist and even local went to visit house by house and take the pictures of the houses...

Some owner even open up their gate to let visitors go in and take picture with their house...haha !

Raindeer

Caroling :)

Even on the road.

I Wanna Scream My Lungs Out.

2009-11-04T21:34:00.002+08:00

I did all I can.

I did talk to you.

1 minute I'm happy. But 1 minute later I'm sad.

So tiring rite ? I know you do.

If it's so tiring for both of us, then maybe we should come out with some conclusion.

Some ways, that can make both of us happier.

Sorry. I just can't take it anymore.

No Expectation.

2009-11-03T23:08:00.004+08:00

Haha... finally my home's internet connections is back to normal....

Last month can't even online...

And I know my blog has been so 'empty' lately...

Anyhoo, many many assignments coming in and final exam is just around the corner... =S

Hmmm.... Lately often argue with him.

He just don't get me. If u're reading this, U know I mean it.

He doen't know what I dislike, what I hate. Opps, maybe he did know what I dislike, but still doing it...

I know I can be quite a headache for you sometimes, but what's wrong with being jealous ? If i don't love you, I don't effin bother bout you aready !

Well maybe you don't get what my love is...

And i shall not expect anything more than I should. You will always be you.

I'm just too tired.. Effin tired of behaving like this each time... reply your message harshly and etc.

But can't you really sense that I'm upset or do something to make it up for me ? HAHA... you'll plainly ask me " Bi, are you angry ? "

Damnyourite, I AM ANGRY. EACH time you asked me this question, I wanted to answer you I'm EFFIN upset and mad of you. BUT, what is the point of me saying this. You will plainly give me the word " Sorry " and think of the way to make me happy back. AND what ? the next day did it again.

I'm bored of this. I hate to repeat the same thing each day. I hate to keep msg you with all the harsh short cold msg. But what can I do ? Damn I'm seriously tired of this.

Today, you accidentally bump into me twice in college. Twice infront of my friends. 1st, you said you're in a rush to class. But I don't think a simple ' HI ' will take you much time. 2nd time, you're were with this 'friend' of yours in that puff stall thingy. When I pass by and asked you why are you there, you did not answer but stoned there. While I walk off, you didn't even come over and say ' HI ' or what so ever. Obviously you must have LONG TIME never see your 'friend' I guess. Or maybe, I'm just not that important as compare to your friends.

Anyway, today went OU with Isabel and Jolene for movies. Watched The Time Traveler's Wife.
This movie is awesome. I actually cried at the ending. Sob... =(

Well, can't wait to film our assignment this week. I shall just concentrate on the filming, and be prepare for finals. Other than that, I will just stop thinking and care less.

I Don't Get You.

2009-10-23T13:08:00.003+08:00

I seriously don't know what you want.

I did try to change.

I did try to treat you better.

I did all I can.

But when each time I try to show you how much I love you, you blow it off !

I'm FUCKING dissapointed and upset. You have no idea how much the heart breaks !

What do you want from me ?

I seriously clueless.

And I hate that I can't even make you happy all the time.

I'm completely a girlfriend failure.

This relationship is always bout me and arguements right ?

I know. and I'm tired of it too.

Maybe I'm not able to give you what you want.

Maybe, Maybe.. I'm also not the one for you.

Love You (II)

2009-10-08T18:08:00.003+08:00

Happy 2nd Month Anniversary.

I ♥ You Bi. =X

xoxo, Kelly.

Smile.

2009-10-02T20:59:00.003+08:00

As mentioned above.

I Can't Smile.

Why ?

Why I can't smile like the others ?

Why I can't smile like the children getting their candies?

Why I can't smile like there's no tomorrow ?

I finally, finally know why I can't smile.

When I try to smile in front of the mirror, I look so weird.

Those smiles, is effing fake.

Those smiles, is effing ugly.

I can never learn how to smile.

Smile naturally...Not that fake smile...

Why ?

I finally know the answer.

I never know how to smile,

It's because,

I never learn how to smile.

I never learn how to smile like I'm the happiest person in the world.

I never learn how to smile like I'm the luckiest person in the world.

Why is that so difficult for me to smile ?

That's because,

I never know how to enjoy my life.

I never know how to appreciate things in front of me.

I will never learn. I will never come out with a beautiful smile. Ever.

How pathetic it is...

xoxo, Kelly.

Back.

2009-10-02T20:24:00.006+08:00

Raya Holidays is over.

Many things happened.

Ups and Downs.

Anyhoo, Genting had nice and bad weather during the Raya week.

---- Pictures took from my room ----

* Evening, nice clear weather *

* At night, misty, fireworks *

* Myndy love came up, it was a Sunny Sunny Day *

She ask me to pose with that plant..lol..

Oh yaa.... On that week Baby and Christina came up too. But too bad I didn't take any pic... >.<

PS : I need an effing pc mouse for god's sake. I hate laptopsssss ~

xoxo, Kelly.

What A Feeling.

2009-09-17T16:50:00.002+08:00

I really want to get away from here.

Right now.

Can't wait for a week of holidays.

xoxo, Kelly.

Latest Addiction

2009-09-13T15:14:00.007+08:00

♥ The Vampire Diaries ♥

Sabrina Koh turns 19 !

2009-09-11T23:31:00.004+08:00

LoL...

Believe it..

Jo and I haven't pay the internet bills until now.

Muahaha...

And it's total of friggin RM400++

Gosh....Now I announce, I'm officially broke... =(

Anyhoo, I shall just update some of the latest activities I've went.

On 05th Sept, went to Gary's birthday party...

Finally turned 21st... haha...

Oh..he celebrated with his older brother and mother too... So nice...

Having to celebrate same birthday together every year..

Hmmmm....I don't really remember what I did for the past few daysss...

I shall just skip till 07th Sept - went to Sg.Wang with Isabel, Sabrina, Jolene and Bi.

Didn't spent much...bought few dresses and food..

Was actually planning to get heels... But jinx wei... Whatever I say I want to buy, I will never able to get it for what-so-ever reason..

LOL.

Hmm.... And 09th Sept, It's Baby Sabrina's 19th Birthday ! =)

Celebrated in MIST Club, Bangsar.

Was awesome. Not as bad as I thought it would be..

I believe everyone who's there that day did enjoy themselves.. ^^

And I'm tipsy. Like really almost gone. LOL. (Gosh I never thought I would be)

Party till 3ish, went yam cha, then went back home and sleep around 5ish...

And the next day classes was like 11am and I slept for only few couple hours... =(

On 10th Sept, the girls and I and also the boys did a small suprise party for Sab.

BBQ =)

We did have fun. As always.

And here's a little message for my dear Sabby :

I know you've heard this for so many gazilion time,

I still want to wish you HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY sweetie...

May your wishes come true !

=X

Love, KELLY.

Love You (I)

2009-09-05T22:19:00.006+08:00

I can't update any latest stuff lately..

Damn fustrated...

Blame the internet... I haven't pay for monthssss... T.T

Anyhoo, Happy 1 Month Anniversary Baby!

I Love You.

xoxoxo, Kelly.

Drama.

2009-08-29T12:17:00.017+08:00

PICTURES :

I don't know what is wrong with my blog.

Changed format ??

Iiish... It's hard for me to post anything.. Or was it just my pc ? >.<

Oh yesss....

Finally I get to blog...

So much of drama lately.

Well, it's not me this time. * Luckily *

I hope that 'issue' can be settled a.s.a.p.

I don't want any of my gf(s) or friends get hurt.

PS (For my gals) : No matter what happen, I'll be there to listen and 'consult' you..

Heeee ~ XP

As for me, I managed to survive a month without internet at home in dj.

* Pak-su , Pak-su *

I know it's sucks man...

Just imagine how bored I am in my room without internet, facebooking, youtube, blogging, etc...

And so, last past weeks I have been out, out and always out with my girls and baby.

And now, I'm broke like sh*t.

Can't even shop anything. Arrhhhhh....... =(

And I'm in Genting now. As usual mostly every weekends.

Youngest sis b'day yesterday, mom's b'day tomorrow and merdeka on monday.

I'm going to be busy. Babysitting =.=

Well I'll deffinietly miss my gals and my baby.

xoxo, Kelly.

Money

2009-08-22T18:22:00.003+08:00

Money.

I need money now.

I really need to shop right now.

Pretty cloths...Pretty bags...Pretty heels...

I'm so going to find part time jobs.

I need cash.

Maybe It's Just Too Soon.

2009-08-22T03:12:00.003+08:00

Yes...

Maybe, It's Just Too Soon...

Maybe, I should just let things flow slowy...naturally...

Maybe, I should just let the time decide...

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Yesterday was our 2 weeks anniversary.

And everyday in this merely 14 days I felt so lucky to have met you.

To have won your heart...

To have entered your heart...

I remember on thursday you told me you love me more than before..

I was so happy.

And because of those words, I tried to let you enter my heart completely.

But sadly, things doesn't seem so well.

Maybe, I shouldn't expect much from you at this point.

Maybe, I should just give both of us more time before we really step forward to the next level.

Maybe, you should first realise and consider again...

Am I the one for you.

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I was so happy when I heard you came up Genting today.

But you let me down.

All I wanted to say is, I shouldn't meet up with you today.

I don't want to explain it in details why I was so mad at you.

But I think I deserve to get mad. Coz you broke the major rules in our relationship.

I couldn't belive you did not message me nor call me once I walked off.

I was so pissed and decided to calm myself by sitting infront of Highlands Hotel.

It was freezing cold. and unconsciously I've sat there for an hour.

I received few sms but none of it is from you.

Till a moment I really can't stand the cold temperature, I decided to walk in to Indoor Theme Park.

And at that moment, when I wish I will not meet you, I've bump into you..Again...

And I thought fate gave you another chance for you to make it right.

But no..

You let me walked away alone.

And till now, I haven't receive any msg from you.

Do you not realise what initially made my upset ?

Well I doubt so.

And hey, congratulations...

I've dropped my tears because of you for the very first time.

And the best part is, you not knowing it.

R.I.P, Sly.

2009-08-22T02:43:00.011+08:00

I know it's a little bit too late for me to blog this out.

Was suppose to blog this on the 15th August 2009.

And that was the day Sly passed away.

On 15/08, I received a call from Sabrina. Her one-short-unexpectable-sentence really drive me stunned.

All she said was, " Girl, Sly passed away this morning. "

Not knowing what is the reason, this news really shocked out of me.

I couldn't belive at 1st. Was thinking maybe Sab received prank news from her friends. But after receiving the confirmation from Jody, I couldn't choose but to accept the truth.

It was a sudden shock.

He was so young.

Haven't even turn 20.

Why God invited him to heaven so soon ?

I believe he still got lots of things that he wants to achieve 1st before ending his life.

I felt so sorry for him.

I once love this person, hate this person.

He entered my heart, then damaged my heart.

And I haven't spoke to him for almost 8 months since the day we broke up.

And now, I'm regretting it.

I should have forgive him and wish him happy.

With my own words from my very own mouth.

And now everythings is too late.

He's gone.

I hope you're in a better condition, better place.

Where you can always maintain your laughter..

Always laughing - like I always said, laugh like a small boy.

May You Rest In Peace, Sylvestor Liew.

xoxo, Kelly.

2009-08-14T23:20:00.011+08:00

Wow...

Time passed so fast...

And now only left a few more days till my 5th sem starts.

3 weeks of holidays..

Not to say too short, not to say too long.

Not to say not enough, not to say enough.

This 3 weeks holidays I did have fun with my loveys and dear.

Hmm... 1st week didn't really go anywhere... Went back Genting.

2nd week went to Penang with the loveys - Isabel, Jolene, Christina, Shu Hann, Andrew and Jin Swan.

Was actually planning to go Perhentian..but too bad it's monsoon season this month T.T

Anyhoo, I did enjoy myself in Penang... Except the beach case.. It's really.....
" Not so clean, not so attractive "

Pictures uploaded at my facebook =)

And now it's already the 3rd week...

Went back Genting...

Yea...I know.... My holidays is so simple... And bored...

What to do... I'm not so busy as compared to my girls ! =.=

Anyhoo, on Tuesday (11/8), I went back DJ.

Coz I want to company Andrew to Sg.Wang. He said he needs to get new tees.

I couldn't let him go alone...So yea...I went all the way back alone without Jolene.. =.=

So on Wednesday (12/8), went to Sg.Wang with dear, Andrew and his friend, Alina.

Small world.. B and Alina study at the same high school.. But not really close la..

So 4 of us took cab there. Reach there around 1 ish..

Andrew and Alina walked around while me and B looked around for Sony Ericsson shop ( To repair my phone)

Haha...walked whole big round till we finally found it...In BB Plaza.

Handed over my phone then pergi makan lunch at Gasoline...

Yummy..I love the tom yam soup there...

And it takes time for Andrew and Alina to find that place... Haha !

After lunch, we walked a while to shop for Andrew and Alina's cloths..

Then I received a call from the communication store to collect my phone back.

Wow..I didn't know it takes so soon. I expect maybe few days...Haha... Cool.... Finally after few months.. I get to use my phone again.. ( It's S.E W760i in case you don't know )

Then around 4pm we took cab headed back to DJ... Coz Alina need to be back before 5.. She got driving lessons. Haha.. 1st time I went to Sg.Wang for only 3 hours.

PS : I didn't get anything.. =.= I didn't get to enter any shops also.. lol.. Nvm la... Next time..Next time...

Reach DJ then went OU with B coz I really want to watch G.I.Joe.

Nice movie...

And thanks to B for companying me... He was so tired but still teman me watch.. Muack ! ^^

On Thursday (13/8), went back Genting.

Makan dinner with Jolene at Pizza Fac.

After that we decided to catch a movie... And yes we watched District 9..

The movie was OOkkkaay la.. But I find it quite funny...Aliens and humans communicating to each other. Haha..and can jadi kawan...Haha.. ( Shu Hann, must go watch ya ! )

Today (14/8), went out with Jolene...

Bored...actually wanna shop 1. but nothing attracts me.

Went to Bakery for lunch..makan strawberry tart. yummy my favourite...

After finish jalan-jalan went to Pizza Fac. (Again) for dinner... Yes, I will never get bored of that place.. It's always a hang out place for me and my friends. Nice food, nice environment.

After makan went straight back to apartment and here I am onlining, blogging at the lobby. Haha..

Few picture I managed to take today..

Yummy ~~

Candid

Funny pose ;)

Like Neoprint

Jolene's :

Mine :

PS : The Cam-hore is back ! Haha..Bare with me... I'm super boring in Genting :P

I miss my boo ! =X

xoxoxo, Kelly.

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2009-08-08T23:48:00.002+08:00

Today is a special day.

The day I get to hear what I want to hear.

The day he finally have guts to ask me.

The day I finally made my decision.

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2009-08-02T02:29:00.003+08:00

I just want to be HAPPY.

Is that so difficult ?

OMG...

2009-07-31T23:12:00.005+08:00

Oh My Gosh...!!
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I'm speechless...
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I didn't expect to get that message from him...
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Can I trust him ??
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Arhhhhh...somebody please tell me what to do.....
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xoxoxo, Kelly.

Will You ?

2009-07-26T01:42:00.003+08:00

I'm loving and addicted to Amy Winehouse - Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow.

Her version is simply awesome.

Touched.

Tonight you're mine completely
You give your love so sweetly
Tonight the light of love is in your eyes
will you still love me tomorrow?

Is this a lasting treasure
Or just a moment's pleasure?
Can I believe the magic of your sighs?
Will you still love me tomorrow?

Tonight with words unspoken
You'll say that I'm the only one
But will my heart be broken
When the night meets the morning star?

I'd like to know that your love
Is love I can be sure of
So tell me now cause I won't ask again
Will you still love me tomorrow?

I need to know
Will you still love me tomorrow?

PS : Will You ?

xoxo, Kelly.

4th Sem.

2009-07-26T01:28:00.002+08:00

Happy Holidays !!!

♥

Today's PR Event really tiring..

But it's worth it..

And confirm dapat 'A' dah la...

XD

Bought many many cloths from bazaar..

Yeap, bestnya... one shot bought so many cloths..

Family also come to college and support.

Mummy bought stuff too..

Hmmm.. who else is here...

Hui Ling, Sandy, Mandy, Chia Wern etc.

Oh yea... get to carry puppies and kitties too ! =)

All of them look so so adorable..

Too bad I can't adopt them 'yet'...

hmm... yesterday slept for bloody 4 hours again..

then need to be at college at 8am.

till around 9pm only end.

wahhh... tiring sial...

tetapi, memang worth it

♥

Bye Bye 4th Semester.
( PS:I hope I pass all my sub ! )

Ola Holidays !!

2009-07-25T00:06:00.005+08:00

Finally....

Gosh...seriously finally....

My Final exams ended....

and here comes The Holidays !! =)

Finally my 4th sem ended...

OOOhhh..not yet...

Another assignment tomorrow...

My PR Event...Haha...finally....

It's a charity event. To save the dogs in Pulau Ketam.

Hmmm...basically most of the dogs there really living in a mess. Mostly sick... So sad for them...

Mostly owner abandoned them there. Left them stray and starve till death..

It was really sad...

Anyhoo, here's your time to do your part in saving these poor doggies.

There will be Bazaar shopping, foods, local bands, fashion shows, games and etc.

Basically full of entertainments..

And it's BIG... BIG event... well at least for me..

(ps:it contains 40-50% for the whole sub ♥)

Fun..Fun..Fun.. ♥

It's only RM5 per entry.

" RAVE 2 SAVE " ----> Rescue Animals Via Entertainment.

Nice tagline. Nice objectives too.

All proceed will goes to SPCA.

So if you care for the pity dogs in Pulau Ketam, please come to our event.
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Damn it's exhausted...

After PR exam straight go for PR briefing...

Everyone starts to set up the stage, goodie bags..

Oh yes goodie bag... A LOT OF GOODIE BAGS...

Each worth around RM150. Gosh, I would want one of it.

But I think it's a "First Come First Serve Basis".

Damn tired...and hungry...

Yesterday slept around 3am (studying for PR exam XP)

Then woke up around 7am to study again...

Then go college at 9.30 to sit for the exam.

After 2 hours of exam, went to CK for breakfast a.k.a lunch.

What I ate ???

Bread... Steam bread... =.=

Focker, I'm so regret why I didn't eat other more fullfilling stuff like rice or noodle.

Know why ??

Coz after lunch, went back to college need to help up with all the set up and goodie bags...

Hell tired wei....

everyone was so busy... so messy..

worked till 8pm ish..

arhhh... seriously I was focking starving and exhausted...

and I felt sorry for Eugene.

Keep using harsh words in sms to express my super+tired+hungry+mad feeling.

HAHA...!

So after those set up, I went home straight away...

Shower then went straight to Centre Point with Isabel, Jolene and Sabrina.

Reached there, walked straight in to Dragon-I.

Walked in Dragon-I, straight took menu and order non-stop.

Yes, everything STRAIGHT AWAY..

There's NO time to even talk or think...

We look as tired and hungry like zombies. Serious sh*t.

Ordered 6 dishes and desserts.

GOSH... It's awesome...

and this might be the last meal I will have with my girls before this coming holidays.

ARrhhh, I will miss them... 2 weeks man...

And, I want to go to Pulau Redang !!! >.<

So much to think.

2009-07-16T21:14:00.002+08:00

Hah.. Lately very lazy to update my blog.

Many things happened.. Friendships ? Hmmm~

Of course I Love my Girlfriends.. and always will..

I'm a very-hard-to-approach kind of person, sensitive and straight forward.

And because of this, I hardly get any close friends.
( It's either I don't like their attitude or vice versa. )

But I'm really happy, and lucky to have all of 'them'.

You guys should know who you are..*wink*

They make me smile.

They make me feel appreciated.

I dislike backstabbers, fakers, over-reacted, and lies !

Honesty is the best policy. Yes, indeed Truth hurts... But Lies worst ~

I rather hear all the truth, than hearing all the lies.

I rather talk face-2-face, than backstabbing.

But what to do, it's a girl's thing.

Girls, don't just come to your face and give you a big slap.

But, what they do is being bitchy. Stab your back, dirty your name, and worst, fakers....

Anyhoo, nope I'm not having any problem with my girls so far.. I'm good, they're good too ! =)

Hhhmmm, what else..

Oh... there's so many things running in my mind right now.

Final exam next week..

PR event next saturday..

Mega sales. Shopping next week..

Revision ? Errmm....

Chocolatessss..

My phone =.= I need to get it repair soon.. Miss my phone..

Holidays..

Vacations..

Myndy.. Miss her.. Want to meet up with her soon..

And erm, 'Him' ....?

It's so much to think about.

And I'm confuse.

It had been 6months being single.

I'm not sure whether I want to get involve in any relationship right now.

I'm perfectly fine without 1. I guess.

But still I do hope to fall in love again.

But that will be my biggest fear.

I'm afraid to fall in love, real deep, and get hurt, real deep.

My heart bleed too much. And scars all over it.

Can I overcome my fear ?? That's a question I keep questioning myself.

But I can't give out any answers. I'm just too afraid.

xoxo, Kelly.

Numb is the word I can relate right now.

2009-07-07T20:29:00.003+08:00

It had been weeks i didn't update my blog.

Lately too much things happened.

Time passed by so fast.

There's nothing to update. Nothing to share with you guys.

The only thing is I've met a person.

But he always leave me clueless.

And I Hate It Fu*king Much.

For god knows why, I'm not feeling well lately. Flu started to attack me.

And I pretty much not having a good time too.

Been staying at home for 2days. And didn't step out of the house for 24 hours.

Been sleeping the whole day.

I'm not sure what is wrong with me.

But I'm suffocating. I need the air.

I get very upset yesterday. But who's here with me ? Nobody.

Who can I talk to ? Nobody.

And at that very moment, I felt so weak.

I need someone to give me strength.

I need someone to talk with.

I need someone to lend me their shoulders, for me to cry out loud.

But who's here for me ? Nobody. But only the 4 green walls and the ceiling.

I really need a break. I want to leave this place. I need to leave this place.

Final exam and PR event are only 2 weeks away from now.

And I can already feel the pressure. From family and myself.

Haiz..

And lately, I'm so addicted to The Fray.

Their new song - Never Say Never is da bomb.

I can't stop listening to it.

And James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado - Broken Stings is awesome.

I love the lyrics. It's so real.

- And here's the personal part -

I always step into my own trap.

I always, always let guys get into my life that quickly.

And I always, always, always the one that get hurt so badly.

Indeed, my biggest fear would be Love.

And maybe I don't deserve any of it.

So I'll rather just live without any guys in my life.

I know that sound childish, but I think that's the only way I won't hurt or get hurt.

xoxo, Kelly.

Adakah Aku Bahagia Sekarang ?

2009-06-08T20:46:00.004+08:00

08 June 09

My 1 week holidays ended.

So short, yet so long.

Was fun tho. Hanging out with the love.love.love and family.

Shop and spend.. Sales everywhere even in Genting =)

OH... I also met up with my primary school mate--Lau who just came back from UK. ( studies )
He's having holidays.. so he came up Genting to meet us.

I only got one word to describe my feeling.

~~ MISERABLE ~~

Actually he called me and Jo for so many times and NEVER will we pick up his call (as usual).

and then he called Erica.

He ajak her to go out coz he just came back and wanted to hang out with her.

She said don't want. Then he message her like an order for her to meet up with him.

[ He said, "Come out now and hang out with me. You can bring Nee Sha and Jolene also".

MAHAI !

Nevermind. We sabar aje. We got meet him. Got. After 2 hours. LOL. We take our lovely time doing our stuff before going to meet him.

Met up with him in 1st World Starbucks.

Damn Funny.

We saw him and pretend we didn't. And he slowly approach us. He act like VERY long didn't see us only. With his face reaction so shocked to see us.

And I think he expect us to run towards him and hug him or something 1. Coz he was like stoning there with his shockingly+suprisingly+excitingly face.

Sorry la Lau, dissapoint you tim. =)

When he start talking, wah...my heart beat pump up to 200+ times faster wei...

Really can't stand the way he speak and trying to act like a 'Guai Lou'.

Hello, 'U' just been there for like how long ah ? 6 months ? and you came out with those 'American Ah Mo slang ' =.=

Plenty of my friends who been for years and came back from overseas also didn't behave like this la...

Some more want to show off.. LOL.

Lagi worst. When we were busy ordering our drinks, He dare call Erica to buy drink for him.

He gave her only RM20 and he sat there busy with his phone calls.

WALAO....

Still got d1ck ah you brother ?! Dare ask a girl to buy you drink and didn't even offer to treat her back.

Luckily I'm not dare when he call her to buy. Or not............... I also not sure what I will do to him.

Buy already nvm, when Erica gave him back his balance, he somemore ask how much is his drink.

DIAO...

'U' so scared we take your money meh... some more that few ringgit only. A drink there also cost RM14-15 la...

Here's some interesting conversations between him and us. More to how we ' ZHA ' him.
[ ~ 1st bracket is HIM ~ ]
{ ~ 2nd bracket is US ~}

1. [ He = Why you guys seem so shockingly when see me ? ]
{ Us = Who shocked ? No one shocked. You are the one seem so suprisingly when saw us }

2. [ He = You guys never change, still same old you ]
{ Us = Yes we are, and so do you }
[ He = No, I did change. I no longer wear braces, i spike my hair, bla bla bla ]
{ Us = EEERRrrr.... NOPE. Still same old you. Never change at all }

3. [ He = I totally forgot who is the prime minister in Malaysia now. Razak ah ?
{ Us = Razak passed away long ago dude. }
[ He = oh ya ah ? Hmm... i don't remember anything here already ]
{ Us = Yakah, so sad. Today is our Agung's birthday }
[ He = What is Agung ? ]
{ Us = You don't know what is Agung ? our King la }
[ He = Ya ah ? Can't blame me. I really forgot everything ]
{ Us = You just been there for few months and you can even forgotten what is Agung. So if you been there for 5 years maybe you will forget everything in Malaysia or even its name rite ? }
[ He = Ya wor.. who knows rite. Maybe I will.. Haha. ]
{ Me = Wahh.. Jo, we so lucky wei..should be proud.. Lau still remember us weii... }
{ Jo = Ya leh.. I'm so proud of myself }

4. { Us = I thought you said you go to America. Now you said you came back from UK. So where actually you've been ? }
[ He = Ya la. America and UK same la. ]
{ Jo = No, America America, UK UK. Both different countries. }
[ He = Ayar, same la.. near only ma... can take train also ]
{ Us = Train ??! }

5. { Me = So did your dad provide you any car there ? }
[ He = ( Pause for a while ) Got, sure.. but if I didn't drive I take bus and train la ]

6. [ He = I got change la come on. Changed a lot ]
{ Us = Nope }
[ He = I dye my hair la. Blone ]
{ Us = Eerr, nope. It's black }
[ He = Oh, I just dye it back to black ]
{ Me = why ? because you coming back so you wanna look like an asian 1st ? }
[ He = ............................... ]
{ Jo = nevermind, you surely got pictures of you blone 1 rite ? }
[ He = ( thinking ) Got. But in UK ]
{ Jo = When you get back, send it for us to see }
[ He = OK. I'll send to you through Friendster ]
{ Us = Friendster ?! }
[ He = Ohh, you guys didn't use Friendster already ? How about Facebook ? ]
{ Us = LOL. Facebook la. Don't know how many months didn't use Friendster already lo }

LOL !!

[1] We will NEVER EVER get shock when we see you.

[2] You never change since the 1st time we know you 10 years ago.
Exactly the same. Accept you grew taller.

[3] You'd been there just for few months. not years. and you act like you're a completely foreigner. This is your land. The place you were born in. You thought with your new slang and forgetting M'sia looks cool ? Looks like 'Ah Mo Lang' ? The answer is No. Not cool at all. Infact, it's a shame. You're a pure Malaysian, so act like 1 dude !

[4] America and UK is 2 different country, brother... NO train actually connect to each other. =.= You thought I don't know ? LOL. I just want you to crap shit only and later laugh at it.

[5] Car ? For you ? In UK ? While you're studying there for only a year? As you say man !

[6] No. Langsung tak ada ciri-ciri orang barat.

There are too much to even type it out. When I think of it back, really can't stop me from laughing la...

LOL. I'll just see 'U' after a year to see whether you really change or not ;)

~ TODAY ~

After class, went to The Curve coz Sabrina wanted to eat at Kim Gary.

Went with the loveys and Jhoonaun.

After lunch, went for movie with Sab and Jo while the rest went to OU.

Watched Alien VS Monster ( 3D version )

OK la... funny juga... I like that blue jelly monster - BoB. Cute.

After lunch, went shopping for a while. Then went to Ikano to da pao currypuff (dinner).

At the same time, right time, just after we step out of Ikano, we bump into Jhoonaun's car..

LOL.. Suprisingly. Like fated.

And so be became the driver of the day..wahaha..

Reached home, upload photos and around 9-10 CharsonLim called ajak yam cha..

Went to Kayu and chit chated.

Saw some people I know there included KennethKhoo and Fiona.

Later, masterLim said wanna bring us go longkai. So we went to MJ cafe, Pak Li Kopitiam dan lain-lain.

Back home around 1am. And here I am blogging. With my crazy internet line. Phwww, finally I managed to post it out now.
( Start blogging this since 8pm and save it as draft before went out. And now continue this )

Good Night.

xoxoxoxo, Kelly.

Pictures Do The Talking (Part 1)

2009-06-08T19:06:00.019+08:00

Pictures from last week. ( Before sem break-sem break )

Wong Kok.

LOL. Jolene ~

A day out with Sab and Jo.

Shisha with Jo, Isabel and Christina.

LOL. Macam-macam pun ade.

My favourite snack ~

Jolene and me.

Christina and me.

Isabel and me.

College(s) Trip.

KBU

Segi College

Genting Highlands

My Favourite hot chocolate in Bakery.

View from my room---Highland Hotel.

A little bit about me.

2009-06-01T02:35:00.002+08:00

Haven't get back my lappy.

So I can't upload any pictures yet.

Hmmmm....

Oh here's a little bit about me. Did it coz I was freakin bored.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Iced mocha.
2. Last phone call: Sabrina Koh.
3. Last text message: Erica Chai.
4. Last song you listened to: Lady GaGa - Poker Face.
5. Last time you cried: Last week - personal reason.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Never.
7. Been cheated on: Yes.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No.
9. Lost someone special: Yes.
10. Been depressed: Yes.
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Black
13. White
14. Rainbow colours

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yes. Lots.
16. Fallen out of love: Been there.
17. Laughed until you cried: Ya i guess.
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes.
19. Found out who your true friends were: Maybe.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Not sure bout this.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yup.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Most of them.
23. How many kids do you want to have: If I want, 2-3 perhaps.
24. Do you have any pets: A hamster, name Honey.
25. Do you want to change your name: I'm fine with my name.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: My 18th (2008), had a pool party, got new bf.
27. What time did you wake up today: 1300 hour.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Watched ' Pink Panther 2 ' with daddy.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Finals. Vacations with the babes. Away from M'sia (at least for a period of time).
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 4 hours ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Nothing. Especially my background. If not, I'm very sure I will not be standing where I am right now.
32. What are you listening to right now: Was actually watching ' The Spirit '.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Wasted holidays staying at home. Finals.
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook.com
36. Whats your real name: Yap Nee Sha.
37. Nicknames: Shan, Kelly Yap.
38. Relationship Status: Single.
39. Zodiac sign: Libra.
40. Male or female?: Female.
41. Elementary: Don't remember. In Segamat, Johor.
42. Middle School?: SK Sri Layang, Genting Highlands.
43. High school/college?: SMKBBBK, Batang Kali / KDU College, PJ.
44. Hair colour: Black.
45. Long or short hair? : Shoulder length.
46. Height: 168-172 cm.
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: No. Not now.
48. What do you like about yourself?: No idea.
49. Piercings: 6.
50. Tattoos: Getting. Need approval 1st.
51. Righty or lefty: Righty.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Thank god. Never have any.
53. First piercing: ermmm, 8-9 years old maybe.
54. First best friend: Best friend(S) - Myndy, Jolene, Erica, Sandy.
55. First sport you joined: Running.
56. First vacation: Don't remember.
58. First pair of trainers: - Nil -

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: No... It's 2.30 am !
60. Drinking: No.
61. I'm about to: sleep after this.
62. Listening to: Beyonce - If I Were A Boy
63. Waiting on: What's the question ?

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: Yes.
65. Get Married?: Of Course. with the 1.
66. Career?: Career before family.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Both. If have to choose, eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses: Both. If have to choose, hugs.
69. Shorter or taller: Taller la.
70. Older or Younger: Older.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Not over romantic yet not too spontaneous.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach !
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive way better.
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: ________________.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: Never.
77. Drank hard liquor: Yesh.
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes.
79. Sex on first date: Hell no.
80. Broken someone's heart: Yes.
82. Been arrested: Nope.
83. Turned someone down: Yes.
84. Cried when someone died: Of course LA.
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: No.
87. Miracles: Sometimes. *pray hard*
88. Love at first sight: No.
89. Heaven: Yes.
90. Santa Claus: No. But I Heart Christmas.
91. Kiss on the first date: I prefer take things slowly.
92. Angels: Sometimes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No. I hate cheating in a relationship.
95. Did you sing today?: Yes.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Lied Yes. Cheated on bf No.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: I will just stay where I am right now. It's way better than the past.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: My 18th birthday. History will change.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yes. All the time.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Yes.

Happy Holidays.

2009-05-30T03:10:00.002+08:00

Finally.

I get to online.

managed to survive the whole week without lappy and internet...
( pc servicing, internet tak bayar bill )

banyak kesian Jolene. Got laptop but tak ada internet. LOL.

Since staying at home also got nothing to do, we hang out at OU and The Curve everyday !
Yeshhh, everyday throughout the whole week... =.=
Oh and the loveys and me did some colleges-trip too. ^^
Ambil banyak gambar juga.
But lazy to upload ler. Wait till my lappy back 1st. kaka...

Will update soon.

Happy Holidays ! ( For A Week. swt. )

Mid Term Break

2009-05-23T14:52:00.006+08:00

Finally.

Mid term exams is over.

and here comes my 1 WEEK holiday =.=

it make no difference with 1 WEEK, KDU...!

anyhoo, holidays will be starting on 1st of June.

there's another week till then.

I really wanna go somewhere.

Somewhere...for holidays...like a vacation trip.

I kinda forgotten how long I didn't go for a long trip jor.

ermm... maybe 10 months ???

Yea, I know... How pathetic it is.

I only remember the last time I went to is Malacca.

with the loveys.

How I wish we will go somewhere soon.

Arhhhh... I doesn't want to waste that 1 WEEK holidays staying at home a.k.a Genting.

Anyway, on Thursday after media planning exam and PR presentation, the loveys and me went to OU for dinner.

Mannn, it's been almost a week plus i didn't step a foot in to OU !

How this consider as OU freaks ??

LOL.

Ate dinner at Sushi Zanmai... * Yummy *

after that went to Forever21.

Goshh, so many new dresses and cloths.. and I'm broke like shoot again this month. (as usual)

So end up I didn't get anything T.T

Love this dress ~

Oh, see my eyebags... Stress~

Oh, actually the next day we all will be having Advertising exam.

Yesh, and we still hanging around. LOL.

Anyway, talking bout the 'Girlfriend of mine' that I had problems with lately.

I begin to realise, that everyone have their weak points.

And everyone won't know or learn to know it until someone actually told them.

I understand that.

And I keep thinking, life is so short.

It's too short to be wasted on getting mad of someone.

So why not learn to bare it and live on.

To that 'girlfriend' ,

"It's hard to get mad of you. We've been friends for almost a year. And a Good one. As you don't wish to ruin the friendship, and so do I. See you in college. =) "

xoxoxoxo, Kelly.

Lately.

2009-05-14T20:50:00.002+08:00

Lately my mood keeps getting worst.

I get frustrated easily.

Exhausted easily.

It may caused by the lack of sleep lately.

Everyday just get to sleep for 4-5 hours... and the next day freaking 8am class.

and every night need to burnt midnight oil to rush finish ze assignments.

Was actually given enough time and more than enough to finish it before all the datelines.

But, I never learn. We never learn (group mates).

Always bersenang-senang dahulu, bersusah-susah kemudian.

LoL. However, each time we just managed to get it done and pass up before the dateline. =P

Hmmm... Lately the weather is getting slightly better.

still hot like h*ll in morning & afternoon, but finally here comes the rain at night. Heavy thunderstorm too.

and lately, I kinda have this issue with a 'female' girlfriend of mine.

I just don't know what makes me pissed so much.

Errr...personalstuff I would just skip.

But about the assignments we did together, just unexceptable.

People don't just copy and paste everything.

People do copy and paste AND add some tiny little info such as examples will do too.

Not just once, but many times.

We did fair and square in choosing which parts of assignments to do, and even let 'her' choose 1st. But keep end up not satisfied. Man, you did the choosing 1st. No complaints !

Just I felt lack of communication with 'her' lately.

Not lack, but sometimes Cannot just communicate with 'her'.

Not just me, others felt the same too. Ask them.

Well, maybe lately I'm just too stressed up.

And memang macam ini. Especially in group assignments. Banyak conflict.

Advise : Just always remember to do what you need to do as your parts and that's it.
Other than that is basically none of your concern.

Yes, never test my patient.
You've never seen what I'm capable to do.
I can play nice, but I can play mean either.

And lucky thing is I ain't have any bf right now.
Coz mr.boyfriend will just give me more pressure.
Trust me, I know.
Been there, and back.

But still, if mr.boyfriend can cheer me from all these drama and pressure, I'll pass.
LoL.

xoxo, Kelly.

Yesterday Once More

2009-05-11T22:54:00.007+08:00

11 May 2009

It's been long since I update my blog. Hahaha...Yesh, and I update it today just because of Shu and Isabel keep complaining how long I did not touch my blog already. LOL.

not really free nowadays. with loaded assignments & etc.

and I had been sick for past few weeks (sore throat n lack of sleep)
everyday only get to sleep for 4-5 hours.

anyhoo, I'll start from last week Friday, went up Genting after class as usual.
After dinner at Pizza Fac. , went home and bath and later around 11, Jolene and I went to The Mest for pool session. Played pool for few rounds and around 1am-ish we decided to sing K.

So we sang till 3am. and later Queenie called. She came up Genting with Aun, Eddie and their friends.
Met up with them and chat at Old Town till 5ish.

Saturday, 9th May.

Wesak Day.

May Kwan came up.

Can't wake up early today - the day before slept at 7am.

Quickly shower, make up and went out to meet her and Jolene.

Shopped and chatted. We had great times together.

Around 7pm went to GICC with them and mum to pray for wesak day.

Lot of people there. Ate free dinner there too (all vegetarian. But it's still nice)

Sunday, 10th May.

Mother's Day.

Really felt dissapointed. Can't get to celebrate this special day with beloved mum.

Coz I need to go back KL at 6pm.

And I didn't managed to get any gift for her YET.

Which is really fustrated... Coz I always give her gifts on special occasions.

Haiz... and she had show me so many clues of what I should get for her.
( Like the necklace I gave her last year for her Birthday present - She love it so much and keep giving me clues to get her something like that again...)

Hmmmmm... Anyhow, she did managed to celebrate with her friends.
( At least I don't feel SO BAD )

Monday, 11th May.

Today, woke up late for class - Slept late yesterday. Rushed media planning and Consumer Behaviour's assignments.

Went to class for half n hour only.

Then me and the loveys went to Sunway Pyramid.

Ate lunch at Gasoline.

And later went for shopping la of course ^^

Hahahahaha... Bought a Converse sneaker in black and a high waste belt.

Walked around and cam-whored with the loveys...haha...finally in a million years we took pictures together...
(sound so long but yea, quite long I didn't take picture with them already even we hang out all the time..LOL)

Went for tea at Kim Gary.

and later headed back home.

Today only shopped that few stuff and food cost around rm150.

Arrhh... nope, I didn't plan to spent so much at 1st... But..... I really need to get a new shoes for god knows what reason...haha...

OOhhh, before I forget, I would like to share a song with you guys.

Title 'Yesterday Once More' by THE CARPENTER.

Damn I Love this song SO Effin Much !!

Angel's voice + Beautiful lyrics.

Most people might heard it many times already in their life ( fyi, this song is older than me so so much ) but for those who never ever heard of it or forgotten how it sounds like, PLEASE go to Youtube or any website to download and listen.

It's such an awesome song. Even Karen Carpenter had passed away, no one in this world will able to replace her or even sounds like her.

And in fact, I accidentally drop out my tears when listening to this song.

Yea, Jolene was scared h*ll out. Terkejut suddenly I was crying beside her.

She some more thought I 'Pik Chek' because I can't log in RC and youtube until cry tim... LOL.

Damn, I know I'm a crying baby.

but seriously, this song is so touching. and I can actually feel 'her' soul singing when the song play (even with just the instrument playing).

RIP Karen.C ~

- Some pictures took last week -

~ Myndy Lao Po <3 ~

Yeerr, look at my eyebacksssss...gggrrrr...

xoxoxo, Kelly.

2009-04-23T21:56:00.002+08:00

23-04-09

Yesterday after class went to OU for movie with Queenie and Jolene.

Watched "He's Just Not That Into You "

Rating : 8/10

Some parts are interesting. Some quite boring.

Overall, was okay.

At least we girls, learned some "signals" of how guys turned down a flirt or spark.
Especially some obvious sign when that guy is "just not that into you". LOL.

Today

Tummy ache. arh... why why...

No idea. Gastric attack ? Late for morning class.

After Media Planning class, went over to Cafeteria.

To celebrate Adam Lee's 21st B'day.

Eddora managed to get him a cake, invited few of us for his "small party".

This "meeting" was short, coz most of them are attending 1st tutorial for PR.

As for us, the bodoh club members went to ss2-Wong Kok for lunch. But Bonny wasn't there.. Awww...

Ate french toast only. coz my dear stomach doesn't feel so well. Aiks.

Rushed back to college for PR's class.

stomach getting worst, can only attend tutorial class.

Went back home and rest.

Haiz. My condition + the hot weather, I can totally just black-out on the road.

Really can't stand the weather.

How I wonder those who live in the 4-seasonal countries.

their summer are even worst. 40+ degree ? But of course, the wind are not as warm as ours tho.

Anyway, I had a quick nap earlier. zzzZZzzz..

and the pain just can't stop. It keep coming back.

Hmmm. Ate some med. Hopefully it'll get better.

Arh, I hope I ain't gonna fall sick. Tomorrow going back Genting after class.

Kejap Hot. Kejap Cold.

Hoho..

Oh ya, Mom called and asked bout the room. and toilet.

Well, as usual I told her the toilet is---errm---- full of fungus thinggy on the floor, and the sink was like---errrrr----undescribable, and the toilet bowl----the smells----the drain----

No words can use to describe the toilet. FYI, we shared toilet with the neighbour. and errr, things don't happen to be as clean as before.. =.=

Mom kinda ask me to look around for other place, apartments or other house that at least guarantee the cleaness of A Toilet.
She just want me to live comfortable.

still looking, Mom. =)

xoxoxo, Kelly.

What A Wonderful Summer

2009-04-20T16:42:00.003+08:00

20-04-09

It's freaking Hot nowadays...

Macam summer aje. Today's weather is so sunny. Reached 35 degree ~ wow..

Genting pula like 17-20 degree. See how much different ??? I can get sick easily weii...
Kejap cold, kejap hot.

Anyway, last week went Bangsar with the loveys.

Shopped, but only managed to get a tee. No idea what happen, the person who loves shopping, the person who dragged everyone to Bangsar to shop end up didn't get anything.. Haizzz...
I know, I was quite dissapointed as well. With all the pretty boutiques and cloths, I spent my time there didn't get anything nice. Hmmm...
Well, I blame the weather for that. It was hell hot like today. Which make me feel dizzy and I don't feel like shopping. Only on that day of course..Haizz.. What a waste.

Next, hmmmm... Like usual, all my monthly cash donated to the cinema.
Watched lots of movie this month. Don't really remember what I had watch also =.=
- Friday 13th
- Coming Soon
- Knowing

Today after class, went to OU with the loveys, Marcus, JinSwan, Edward and David. Ate lunch and watched the new Thai Horror flick-Coming Soon. No, the title is Coming Soon, not telling you that this movie is coming soon. Haha. All I can say is, that ghost-killer person is creepy. Her face is so disgust. Eww..
Knowing is nice. Friday 13th is crazy, but not as crazy as Halloween.
Oh yea, Congratez to Isabel+David. Get back together as usual. As We All predicted.

Malaysian Studies final exam is next week and I haven't even start to do my revision.
In fact I keep thinking of going shopping. I need heels ! I need new cloths ! ARrhh...
So frustrated. I'm totally broke like shoot now, and all I wanted is shop pula... Darm it.

The sun is super hot now, I don't have the interest to do anything exactly.
So dizzy. So tired.
All I can and want to do right now is just lay on my bed.
zzzZZZzzzZZZzzzzz....

xoxo, Kelly.

Life's Hectic.

2009-04-14T18:02:00.003+08:00

Yes. Life's hectic. Don't you agree with me ?

I hate my life. It was so boring. So dull. Only black and white.

How I wish I can just disappear somewhere, anywhere.
Where no one can find me, and no one knows me.

I'm a quite hard-to-handle type of person. I'm sensitive and straight.
I ain't that kind of sweet-gal, who needs to forced their self to like something that they don't.
If I don't like to do the thing I don't feel like doing, I Won't.
If I don't like you, I Don't.
I won't talk to you.
I won't even give a damn big fake smile to you.
Yes, this is me.
Accept it or not, depends on you. But if you consider yourself as my friends, then better accept it.
Or not, I don't think I'm honorable enough to be your friend.

In fact, I don't really have lots of friends.
I don't really have true friends.
They come and go, just like the wind.

I used to have a real good friend back in high school.
and because of some misunderstanding, our friendship ended and we never spoke to each other for quite some time.
I make and know new friends, but as usual they come and go, come and go.
When time passes, I only begin to realize who's my real friend.

She is the one that willing to forgive me when I did wrong.
She is the one that will always be there when I needed her.
She is the one that understands me more than anyone else.
Yes, at the end we still remain as good friends from primary school till now. ;)

I don't get friends easily.
coz I'm hard to pleased, and hard to read.
Sometimes, I felt so lonely, but no one knows.
Sometimes, I felt so down, so upset but no one can read what's going on with me.
Sometimes, I just need someone to listen to me, but there's none of them.

As my friend, I will do about anything for you.
But everytime.
EVERYTIME.
It just end up giving me disappointments.
They won't appreciate what I had did for them.
and they can't see the efforts I did to try remain the friendship.
EACH TIME,
I felt betrayed.
I felt so unfair.
When you always needed me, I will try my best to help you, to comfort you.
But when I'm upset, can you tell ?
No, none of you can read my mind.
I'm sure they'll keep thinking what happen to me, why am I ignoring them, and were they the one who pissed me off.
But can't you just ask me yourself what's actually going on ?
It feels so terrible that I can't tell anyone what's going on with me.
Coz no one is willing to listen.
and everything that I kept to myself is killing me.

It's really hard for me to trust anyone.
I always made the wrong choices.
I always thought I've found my true friends,
but everytime, the god just let me down.
I don't like to be lonely.
I too want people to listen to me, to share stuff with me, to treat me as their best friend too.
Was it that hard ?
I don't know.
I'm too tired to know.

Maybe I don't share the same interest with them.
Or maybe sometimes we don't click.
So what ? Eveything won't go as smooth as you thought it will be.
There's so much obstacles. so much problems.
But if they are your real true friend, you and they will overcome it. Give and take.
If not, they're not the one. At least not the one for you.

Songkran Water Festival

2009-04-11T21:26:00.010+08:00

11-04-09

Genting Highlands.

Yup, mostly every weekends I'll be back at Genting.

so, this weekends it's Songkran Festival a.k.a Thailand Water Festival ~

Normal, like every year they have games, shops, thai foods, performances, elephant rides, and of course, water/foam activities ~ with water guns...yada...yada...

As usual, this event was held infront of Genting/Highlands Hotel.

Went there with Jolene. Here's some pic I managed to take.

Spotted ?

See those Voodoo dolls ~ So cute ! but the big 1 ( I'm holding ) cost around rm35... HaHa...

And for the games, they have really huge soft toys. Arhh.. I want a huge bear-bear too T.T

See...they actually play water here..outside...It's freazzzzing cold man. I *Salut* them... LOL.

Yesh, and here's the adorable little baby Tiger... So wanna hug him.. Rrraaawwwwhhhhh ~

And now, It's Aun's session ~
I have no idea what all these reptile's name. But they just look really creepy... =.=

And this kakak so friendly. Keep possing and call us to take her pic.

And this 1 I think I actually touch it before... If not mistaken the same 1 but this is slightly bigger. Only Aun can tell.

PS : Our pic. Long ago. When Aun bring his pet over to our room.( see our face expression. LOL )

And lastly, took pic with the Genting mascot- The Clown 1 ( I forgotten ze name. )
Jolene punya cam skills - Banyak cun weiii. Always ambil my pic eye-closed 1...

Friendship

2009-04-08T19:49:00.004+08:00

Now let's talk bout my personal issue.
Well, not really an issue for me but since few of my friends are currently having this type of problem, I as well talk a little bit bout it.

F-R-I-E-N-D-S-H-I-P

The Girl Boy Thang.

Well, I didn't mean Girls and Boys can't be close friends. And I'm not judging any girls out there who have guy best friend. However, here's some opinions I think it's really good and effective ways to not ruin your friendships.

" The Rules and Regulations "

THE DON'T(s)

(1) Don't be touchy.

- Girls are especially moved by the sense of touch. If he's holding your hand more than he should, then it's timeto keep them in your pockets.

(2) Don't get too close for comfort.
- More so, if you are in a relationship. Watch for how close you sit with each other, and remember sitting on each other lap is just NOT acceptable.

(3) Don't play along.
- Flirting is a big no-no ! Even if he initiates it, don't just go along for the ride; stop him in his tracks.

(4) Don't care.
- " What if's " tend to pop up after you've been badgered ! As long as you are confident in your friendship, you don't need anyone else's approval.

THE DO(s)

(1) Keep those claws retracted.
- Do not start a catfight with his girl ! Even if you don't love her, you don't have to hate her. He has a right to date anyone he likes. Just be there for him as a friend.

(2) Stay honest.
- This isn't an option. The moment feelings, doubts arise, you should talk it out. Leaving feelings unsaid will just allow them to brew. ( Also be honest, with your partners. You wouldn't want your boy to feel threatened by your guy-friend--and vise versa--)

(3) Be a groupie.
- Stick to groups, rather than one-on-one outings. This way you don't cross any lines and solidify the fact that it isn't an exclusive companionship.

(4) Balance it out.
- You can play futsal with the guys, but yo riends come in handy ( and for a lot more ).

(5) Keep the envy in check.
- Being jealous of your friend's girl doesn't mean you want to be with him. It's simply the fear of losing that closeness due to someone new.

and now, What if both you + your best friend like the same guy (and vice versa) ?

Your Game Plan :

(1) Wait for the next catch.
- If you think that the way you feel about that guy is just a simple crush and nothing more, then maybe you should abide by the saying "there are many fishes in the sea". A good friendship is not easy to come by, and to risk it on a mere crush is certainly not worth in.

(2) Cast your net.
- The chances are that he may like ONE of you, but you'll never know until you both give it a go. If you two give it a fighting chance, then at least it's fair. If you've got the guts, go ahead and talk to him ! While jealousy is probably inevitable, if your friendship is strong, it will withstand the uneasy and uncomfortable period.

(3) Just decide.
- Which one of you really does like him ? Talk it out with each other, then give it your best shot. If it happens, it happens. Otherwise, you still have a shoulder to cry on.

and lastly, your dearest BFFs.

Losing touch with friends happens all the time. Sometimes, we drift away because of distance, a change in circumstances or a shift in interests and priorities.
Friends are important because they give us strength, encouragement and support.
Ending friendship can be hard to do, even if you have bad friends or frail friendships. Here's some tips to share with you guys !

Steps to Ending a Friendship.
You've identified that maybe you shouldn't keep her around. But before keeping a decision,
ask yourself;

(1) Does she contact you, or are you making all the effort ? With all the advancements in technology, there's no excuse not to contact a friend.

(2) Does she use me ? If she's only interested in asking you to do something for her, it's time to re-evaluate what her intentions are in this friendship.

(3) Does she lie to me ? When you can't trust a friend to be honest with you, the friendship is on shaky ground and headed for disaster.

(4) Is she there when you need her ? True friends are the ones who call to ask if you're ok, ask you what you need, and are there to support you.

MOST Important, NOT Worth Saving the friendship when :

(1) Ze Backstabber
- Whether it's something as obvious as starting a malicious rumour about you, sabotaging you or giving you the silent treatment for no reason, it is clear that she is out to hurt you on purpose. If she hangs up the phone or leaves texts and emails unanswered, then she is truly not worth your time.

- Even if you're not her victims, you might want to think twice about being friends with someone who is capable of treating others like that.

(2) The User
- She asks you for favours all the time and doesn't help you when you need it most. Friendships are about give-and-take, and if she's always the one taking, you'll know she doesn't have your interests or feelings in mind. Stop being her safety net !

- If you DO remain friends, be prepared for a very lopsided friendship where you can't rely on her. Is this the kind of friend you want ? Think about it.

Credit given to * Seventeen Magazine *

xoxoxoxo, Kelly.

Yikes !

2009-04-08T17:27:00.004+08:00

08-04-09

After class, went to The Curve with Isabel for lunch in Kim Gary.
Selepas itu, we hooped over to Merahkotak for singing session. Sang lots of songs. mainly english coz both of us memang pure bananas.

Damnit. sing for 3 hours + 2 drinks each charged us freaking rm26 each.
Mahai..
and that half-bowl of tipbits cost for 9 bucks ?! tambah service charge some more. I didn't see they give me good service also... Ishhh..
I think it's because we don't have a member card. Even student card also can't use.

OOHH... and the most interesting part is,
when the worker bring in the bill to our room.
Here's the dialogue between us and him. LOL.

Him : Hi, here's the bill.

Me : Oh, how much ?

Him : Errm, ( look at the bill ) Oh, RM51.80.

Me : Wooow, errr wait arhh...( took out my purse, while taking out my money...) Isabel, I not sure I enough cash or not. How much you got ?

Isa : Harrr, I only got RM11 here. and 60 cent. How much you need somemore ?

Me : Shooot, I only got RM37.80 only. wahahahahaha..

Then I look at him, he look at Isa, Isa look at me and vice versa. ( ya I know, so awkward ! )

Him : It's ok, i put the bill here 1st, you can pay later.. ( then he went out of the room )

Me and Isa were like laughing and felt sooo embarassed bout it, and later I have to go to the nearest atm to withdraw cash. On the way out of Redbox, a worker there even tell me where is the nearest atm machine. =.= Scared I won't pay izzit... haiz... malu betul..

After around 10mins, went back to that kotak, paid that person and he said,

Him : Thank you, and please come again. ( and s-m-i-l-e )

Me : HAHA, I don't even know I still got that face to come again or not... ( smile awkwardly and walk off real quickly)

Damn DIU loorrrrrrr, so memalukan.
This teached me a lesson, make sure to store emergency cash in your purse even RM10 is enough. Arhhhh..

Ola April, Ola 4th Sem.

2009-04-07T21:46:00.008+08:00

07-04-09

Wow, really lazy to update my blog.

hmmm. did nothing much during 3rd sem break. most of the time had been staring at the pc.

oh yesh, during the break, i managed to watch few series.

Boys Before Flower

As usual I LOVE GOO JUN PYO a.k.a LEE MIN HO !!!

'Legend' a.k.a 'Tae Wang Sa Shin Gi'

Oh Boy.. I love BAE YONG JOON. This series is super nice. I love it's OST too..

and now I'm watching E.U and Pride.

'E.U' stands for 'Emergency Unit' - HK latest police academy series which is the sequel of 'The Academy' & 'On the First Beat'

Can't believe Sammul Chan will turn 31st this year... yet he still looks young and cute.

'Pride' - Japanese series starring Takuya Kimura. This series is about Ice Hockey players. I remember watching this series in TV3 few years ago and I really like this show. As you can see, I don't mind watching it 2nd times which means it's a nice 1. I LOVE Takuya Kimura. He's so cuutee + h.o.t. Which females on earth don't ? but not in the movie '2046'. Errr, nvm me.

As mentioned, my 4th Sem just stared. I hate the timetable. I hate 8am morning class. Sorry to those morning classes's lecturer, but I ain't gonna concentrate in your class. That is for sure.

Took 6 subject included Malaysian Studies. Wow. another busy sem. Oh ya, talking bout M.S, today my girls and I had our presentation. Topic given : Transexual in Malaysia. Yea, no doubt in choosing this topic out of others, you guys know what I mean especially Isabel ;)

Oh, here's another news. I just had my hair straightened and cut yesterday. HAHA. oh well it's obviously very flat now. I'm waiting for another day to wash my hair. =) will upload new pic real soon...
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I love this dress fcking much but it only left 1 size and it's too big. HAIZ.... =(

till then, xoxoxoxoxoxo, Kelly.

My Life Would Suck Without You

2009-03-22T02:40:00.004+08:00

21st March 09

Currently I have been listening to Kelly Clarkson's latest songs, ' If I Can't Have You' and ' My Life Would Suck Without You'

AWESOME !!

I Love Kelly Clarkson, Sooo much...

I Love her vocals, her strenght, her confidence...

Well, many people out there dislike her for so-call 'wat-ever-reason'. Saying her fat, ugly and etc. But hey, this chick really knew how to sing ! She's awesome, plenty talents, and in fact, I don't think a singer is only valueable with nice body figure.. well, at least try listening to some of her songs 1st before judging her...

Hmmm, yesterday Midnight, went over to 'The Mest'. My sistas wanna play pool.. so played a few rounds of pool, later youngest sis complain hungry. and at the same time, Queenie called and said she's up with Aun and the gang. So we met up in Oldtown, and Wow, whole big bunch of lelakis there.. can't join them as i'm with my sistas. so went home after supper.

Today, woke up around 2pm, actually plan to go to the gym. But was too lazy as the weather out there was freazing cold. So end up watching 'Gossip Girl' season 2 at home.

Stuck my arse on the chair until around 7, mum call me to clean up the room coz I seem so free, and so I did. till around 8ish, received msg from Eddie saying that he's coming up. So after cleaning the room, shower and later went out to meet him around 10. Went to McD for so-call-supper and later headed to the cinema to watch 'The International'.

OHGosh, I hate it to the max. Not the movie, but the cinema. Arh, was sooo small, packed, with tiny chairs...Ish...can't even stretch my legs...yor... sit until backbones also pain..

After movie, went jalan-jalan and chit-chated with him. He very gentleman geh loh. Everything he belanja, when I want to pay back he say he ajak I come out 1, so he need to treat. LOL..
Girls out there, who want to know him let me know. Coz he's currently single wor.
Harrr...Woooott ? LoL...

Oh btw, chaged of plans. Suppose to stay over in Awana on this coming Mon-Tues, but then I come up a new plan. I invited Isabel to come up Genting and stay over at my place. HAHA... yea.. and later, Andrew called and said he's coming up and will be staying over for a night with his friends also...LOL. wow...can't wait to spend time with Isabel in Genting. =)

Till then, xoxoxo Kelly.

Goodbye 3rd Sem, Yello Holidays !

2009-03-20T22:41:00.003+08:00

20th March 09

Yup, bye bye 3rd sem...

I hope I will pass both sub, computing and copywriting. well, please at least give me a B. Hey, I did study ok... even though i seem not prepare and keep playing around... LOL..

Yello Holidays...

2 weeks... wow, what am I going to do during this few weeks before new sem start.

ok, I'm in Genting now. Tomorrow will be going back to BK to see my little sis performing ballet.

Hmm... maybe will stay there till Sunday. Later on Monday will be overnighting in Awana.
( Parents have meeting there. So, I guess I will spent 2 days there, alone.)

till then, will update when I free.

PS : Happy Holidays, Babes.

xoxoxoxoxo, Kelly.